Happy Belated

Wishing my mom a happy belated birthday...
may you live a healthy and happy days ahead...

My parents came down on Friday evening and they came to fetch me together with my sister and brother... then we went for dinner and went back to rest... the next day, have lunch at home... then have a little cake celebration to celebrate mom's birthday... later went to Sunway Piramid for shopping... then went for dinner at a restaurant nearby my sister place... this morning went to an uncle house at Klang to deliver stuffs to him... on the way saw Bata warehouse sale... so went in to buy some shoes... slippers a pair only cost RM5.00... damn cheap... later went to 1U to shop... around 5pm went back and my parents went back to Melaka... ask them to stay a night more but they refuse cause dog at home... later Bobo merajuk... hahaha... leave too long...

Haih, very tired this 2 days... walk and walk ad walk... kaki lenguh... hahaha... then later to night Arif ajak me for dinner... so we went out at 6.30pm... went to Sunway again... thought wanna watch movie but all movies looks boring... so we just walk around and have Carl's Jr for dinner...

All work no play...
makes Kelvin dull...

Lonely Christmas

Yesterday Daryl gives me a little hope saying to follow him back and Friday work at Melaka... so I asked Eddie and he said for him is okay but there's no EXCO in and it's too late dy... so I decided to stay at the hostel... alone... well, I have the whole hostel with me today... downloaded bunch of songs and dramas... not actually la... line kinda slow... a few la... freaking streamyx... and my friend also ffk me today... say wan lepak... haih, nevermind la... tomorrow my parent coming... and will be staying at my sister place till Sunday... so at least I wont be alone till Monday...

Neway, just to wish everyone Merry Christmas...

Ho ho ho...
sien, tomorrow work...

Uncertainty

Recently I've been kinda emo... sometimes I don really show it... but yesterday was very obvious... I myself also cannot tahan... and I could not find ther reasons why... currently in hostel and there's 2 other guys here too... yesterday night was kinda moody and a fellow keep asking me work related stuff which kinda pissed me off... but I keep the cool... really hate myself for being that way...

There's another 5 weeks to go before I end my ITP... there's this mix feelings started to flow or whatever inside me... I just hate the feelings... part of me wanted the internship to finish ASAP... but the other part wish I have more time here... is like a dilemma where you have to choose between two things... but in this case, it's related to the time... so there's nothing I could do about it...

Past two weeks been kinda slow for me... and Eddie too... cause get an 'order' by the boss not to disturb the people in Roystar this two months cause they are so damn busy they wont even look at you... so Eddie and me have no choice and have nothing to do for the time being... all we could do is all the little pieces... but then after a meeting last week and with the release of the new version 2.08... Eddie and me starting to have more works than expected... but mostly are testing jobs... which are kinda a waste of time because you have to make sure it runs as expected...

That is only for the time being... from the meeting last week, most of the stuff will be kick-off after CNY... to be honest, when I heard about it I only have a little feeling of relieved because I'll be finishing my internship before CNY... what I'm worried is Eddie where after I left... he'll be dealing it all alone... and with the dead line set to first of March... I could not live with the feeling of relieved... it feels like a betrayal... but also I could not extend my internship longer which I had already done so... and after CNY, I'll be starting my final trimester...

Will a miracle happens?

PC fair

Sorry about the delay post... last week I went back to Melaka with Arif on Saturday morning... he drove his small kancil all the way back from KL to Melaka... since it's quite an old car... we have to stop once or twice to let it cool down... we arrive safely around 1pm... later in the evening, he ask me to PC fair to help his mom to look for a new laptop... so I went out with his mom and little brother (not little la, dono form what dy)...

We went around 3+pm... the road to MP was jam pack... you could not even move an inch (not exactly la, you get my point)... so we turn to DP but the entrance was block by police... crape... so we have to make another turn... then Arif's mom decided that we park at Mahkota Hotel and walk to MP... quite near la... just have to cross the deadly-fast-moving-car road highway...

As usual MP was pack like hell... on the PC fair level la... you could hardly walk... so we walk around and asking for prices lo... after around 2 hours, his mom made a decision to buy from his friend that she previously bought a laptop with... me on the other hand make my research on external hard disk and also bought myself a laptop cooler (not with me now, show you the next time I go back)... after that, his mom belanja ABC and after that went back... that time is around 7pm...

The next day, went there again... the purpose actually is just to meey yen... long time din see her dy (last time ajak her, she ffk me)... so we have McD for lunch (as usual)... then walk around... go PC fair then around 3pm she went back... she got 'appointment'... hahaha... then I meet up with Arif (followed his car to MP)... then we decided to buy kaspersky antivirus... around 4pm he fetch me back... then waited for Daryl to finish his training at 5pm... around 6pm the 3 of us left Melaka in the small kancil... this time we have to stop more frequently since there's 3 of us (ahem, of course la, someone so heavy)... we reach around 10pm due to stop quite long cause Daryl doing his stuff...

It's quite a fun journey...
long time since the 3 of us hang around...

JLPT

Last week I went back to Malacca... the purpose is to study mostly... hostel is too noisy... and also to see my parents cause very long din go back dy since I start my training... but time is not enough for me... time passes by so fast... I like study for only a few hours... spend most of the time with my parent and my dog... hahaha... then going back KL dy...

This week is kinda hectic... first day went back to work only suddenly has a meeting at Roystar at 6pm... all the staffs will be there... basically just to push them to use our system cause they are not fully using it... after that on Tuesday got another internal meeting... we have to finish training them and make sure all the staffs know how to use in 15 days... so basically last week, Eddie and me been going out to Roystar every single day... so tiring... sometimes they're busy we have to wait for them to finish their current work... there're busy too...

Went back tired and kinda late dy... I dont have the time and energy to study... so Saturday I thought will study like hell... mana tau something happen... no mood study in the evening... but was solve by night... so I study all the tips been given by my lecturer...

Yesterday (Sunday), my bro come late... he reach around 12.30pm... and I have to be there (UPM) before 2pm... after have a quick lunch at McD... luckily we arrive on time... before 2pm... there are so many people there... flooded with people and cars every where... I check my Level 4 test and there are arounf 1200 people taking it... huge man... UPM also huge...

So we went in around 2.20pm to brief and get ready for the test... first paper at 3.00-3.25pm... second was at 4.20-4.45pm... and the third was at 5.20-6.10pm... the first 2 papers was kinda ok for me... but the third was hard... harder than I expected it... a lot I tikam... hopefully I wont fail la... cause this test are held once a year only... if I fail I have to wait next year December to retake...

After the exam, Arif fetch me... cause my brother working dy... we went to Summit and have McD again... swt... cause he say he wan to eat McD, very long din eat dy... so basically my whole day meals are McD... he walk around to walk off the fat and went back to my sister place... I'm home alone since my sister went back Malacca this morning for a friend's wedding... so lepak a while then around 10pm he went back...

P.S.: JLPT stands for Japanese Language Proficiency Test...

Haih...
tomorrow start work again...

Pizza

Yesterday mom bake pizza for lunch...
yummy~

I'm in Melaka...
a few more hours I'll be going back...
not enough time to 'use'...

XeerSoft Day

Last Wednesday it's XeerSift Day...
company day la...
it's held once a month...
no work on that day...
only fun fun and more fun...



we had treasure hunt that morning...
but before that...
we were divided in teams...
and play a short tug-of-war...



Team A (3rd from the left is Eddie)...



Team B...



Team C...



Team D...



Team E...



Each team have a rope...
and was tied to this thingy...
every team send out a menber to pull...
team who crosses the line is lost...



you could see the circle...
each team stand outside it...
who was pulled inside lost...
later rule are change...
all member pull together...
and who's rope break wins...



later all gather for the treasure hunt...
each team was given a coloured paper...
and hints to 11 spots...
find all and create a sentence with the alphabets...



the hunt started...
Team A is discussing...



Found our first clue...
later we only found 9 out of 11...
some team found 10...
and some found all...
team E won...
the sentence is: WE ARE FAMILY...



After that, went back to the office...
played a game to guess who's personality by drawing strip of papers...
the paper was written by everyone earlier...



combining all the games score...
team D and E are tied...
so it was decide by the Great Wall of China...
Team E is the fastest...
so they won...
then was followed by books review...
book name: Man searching for meaning...
later, proceed by sales update...
and concluded by inspiration speech...
a video speech by Harry Potter author: J.K. Rowling...
it's about failure and not to give up...



then we went for dinner...
at Ampang View Point...
great sceneries there...



the dinner is followed by prize giving...
and also birthday celebration for people born in November...



all of XeerSoft members...
I did have fun on that day...
it's a different experience...
it's fun and exciting...
but also tiring...

P.S.: Pictures taken by Elaine and some by Angie...

Will look forward to the next...

Cactus

I've been working for a month dy... well, learned a lot especially on the company's system and how it works... meeting clients and doing support is also a part of my jobs... actually just helping Eddie.... almost every week I went out to client site at least a day or two... following Eddie around is fun... but also tiring... he's a very friendly guy... and knows a lot... tell me a lot about the working environment and this and that... sometimes too many information that I could not 'digest'... need time to process... a very nice guy he is... he always say:"I won't throw you to the sea one, don't worry"... hahaha... gives me tasks and explain very detail on what I'm suppose to do... even though he's very busy at times... he still spend a little time for me to teach me stuffs...

As you could see... there's cactus in this post and the previous one... well, there's almost one on every desk in the office... including mine... the previous post cactus is above my desk... and the above picture is from the other office... took it while waiting for Daryl after work... the cactus is actually gifts from the previous interns... but I have no idea who...

And this is my room space hole where I sleep everyday... on my first two weeks, the room is empty (look at the above picture and imagine without the double decker and cabinet)... only the chairs and the right selves... I slept on the floor... with mattress of course... the bed and cabinet only delivered on my third week here... now I sleep on top and Daryl sleeping below (previously he was sleeping outside in the living room cause got air cond)...

Here (KL), everything is like double of Melaka... the price I mean... a plate of chicken rice will cost you RM5 but in Melaka you could get it for only RM2.50... Milo ice here is about RM1.80 but in Melaka is only RM1.50 or less... ok, not everything is double... but you get my point... they charge you so much but is kinda ok la... a lot of stuffs... but some charge you so much... nothing one, bo 'liao'... for example, a bowl of fish ball mee for RM4.00... all you eat is the mee, fish ball can count with one hand... how to survive, one day lunch and dinner almost RM10 or more dy... if my pay is RM500, 1 month 30 days, RM10 per day... then it will be RM300 dy... plus electric bills, water bills, daily stuff some more ler... RM500 also dono enough not... haih...

Two months more to go... after that will be going back to campus life for another 4 months or so... FYP didn't even touch at all... no time and if have the time , I rather be doing other stuffs or sleep... for my JLPT, really don't have the mood to study... two more weeks before the exam... sei la... and next week will be going back Melaka... miss my parents and my mom's cooking... and also my dog... hahaha... and my room of course... ja, sayounara...

P.S.: Currently at the hostel... din go to my sister place cause got stuff to do...

Can't wait...

Everyday...

It's been 3 week since we started our training... for me, it's a whole new experience... and I had learned so many stuffs... more tasks will be given to me on the days to come... according to Eddie, I'm suppose to learn all the basic stuff in a month... after that task given to me will be tougher and tougher... as you all know, he's currently doing on the Roystar project... and just 2 weeks, he was assigned with 2 more projects; NEP (Diamond water) and HEC (no idea what the heck it is :D)...

So, since I'm under him... I have to help him on whatever he is doing... Roystar project are already hectic since it has 6 branches (I went to only 2 of them)... for NEP, it's a new client... their HQ located at South City Plaza... damn huge... and during the first meeting for client requirements... there serve us 3 jugs water (10 people in the meeting, 3 of our own including me)... of course la, Diamond mah... hehehe... while for HEC, I had no idea what it is about... the HQ is at Melaka... so it was manage under Melaka department (we had KL and Melaka branch, KL is Developement and Delivery department while Melaka is QA department)... but HEC has 2 or 3 branches in KL, so it was assigned to Eddie...

I'm not bragging here... not to tell all of you that I had so many stuff to do till I can't take a deep breathe... it just seems like I had a lot of stuff to do... but actually not... I just do all the small and petty stuff... and sometimes, when Eddie is busy, I had nothing to do... or after I finished my tasks, and he have no other tasks for me, I'm bored too... so I'll go search for something to read or make short notes for my log book... I have no planned tasks, everyday is a 'surprise'...

So to those friends out there that has no stuff to do, yet... and just sit around staring at the clock (or fire extinguisher)... don't fret, walk around and ask people (yes, sometimes they're busy, so come back later)... that's what I do... if not you'll learn nothing... or find stuff to read or search online (if you have computer and internet access)... be patient for a few more days (or maybe weeks, haha)... they'll surely give you things to do... think it (boring times) as a task... a task to make it interesting (un-boring)...

Everyday is a new beginning...

We sing, we dance, we steal things

No, that's not what we do in the company... we provide web-based business solutions to our clients... that is basically what we do... meet the client... do requirements on what their business are... and provide our solutions to fit their business...

This week I still do almost the same stuff again... but got some coding too... I also dunno how to say la... too many stuff... and I am lazy to list all... some are just small and simple task... but some are tougher that need some time... mostly are testing stuff... but basically what I do is just little stuffs... absorb as much as I could... because 3 months are too short to learn all...

Weekdays other than work, I had little time for myself to do stuffs... I normally finish work around 6-7pm depends on the task and sometimes got meeting till very late... if I follow my colleagues for dinner... I would reach home around 9-10pm... if not I eat nearby and reach home around 8pm or so... bath and online a while need to sleep dy around 11pm or latest 12am... wake up at 7.30am the next morning...

Weekends feel so lazy to do anything... every weekends I went to my sister place... she come and fetch me on Friday night... very tired to do stuff... I sleep early around 12 and woke up around 9am... cant sleep dy... then evening sure have an evening nap... here, I would do my log book and I'm suppose to study for my JLPT test on the 7th December... but I no mood to study.... mostly I would follow my sister for food and shopping...

Got stuff do also sien...
no stuff do also sien...

I've been busy...

Ok, I'll update... just a summary on what I do okay...

1st day:
- Reported myself to the company, the company name is XeerSoft Sdn. Bhd.
- I was assign under Eddie, Project Executive... He's a very friendly guy, teach me a lot...
- He brief me on their company organization and his current project called Roystar, a travel agency which he is currently handling...
- He teach me on how to use the invoice billing system, cause he say we'll be going to the client site (Roystar) for training, there's a lot of steps...
- Then he asked me to test the Time Attendance (TA) on XP and Vista...
- After that, join their problem sharing meeting, it's basically to share the problem they are facing and find a solution...

2nd day:
- Get my company email address and employee ID...
- Join another problem sharing meeting, this time is about reviewing the feedbacks from clients...
- Then Eddie asked me to test a script on the Roystar live server on the automatic select system that went back to the default value after saving...
- After that, do the online guidelines or FAQs on the CRM modules on Roystar live site...
- Rehearse on the invoice billing with Eddie...
- Another problem sharing session, this time about the client Roystar, the development team coding standard, Google Applications, and the forming of another new department called Application Team...

3rd day:
- Went to Roystar Headquarters at Jalan Imbi for the client training...
- We have to train their front desk individually and make sure they know how to use it...
- There's 8 people and we have to wait for each person to be free so to not interrupt their work...
- So we have to be on stand by the whole day (9.30am-6.00pm)...

4th day:
- Do the documentation and summary on the feedback from Roystar frontdesk...
- Test and insert new folders on Roystar server (SQL)...
- Test and change the allignment of the invoice billing template (HTML)...
- At 2.30pm, went to NEP Diamond water for client requirements located at South City Plaza, it's a new client, basically is to get information on their company and their operation so to suit our system, meeting ended at 5.30pm...

So, that is basically a summary on the stuff I've been doing at the company... the company has a very friendly environment and everyone does not hesitate to teach... and I learned a lot in just 4 days... especially when going out to the client site... Eddie bring me out even though I'm still new... he say just to have a look and feel on the business environment... and I really experience it... even though I don't understand more than 50% of what they are talking about... but it still a new experience for me... hahaha...

P.S.: I din online or update my blog this couple of days because I don't have my lappie with me... I went to have a look on the surrounding and environment first before deciding whether to bring my lappie with me... most probably will...

Kinda tired during weekends...
cause been lack of sleep...

Festival of lights

Happy Deepavali!
took this while at DP with Yenmei last Thursday...
she say very long din see this kind of things dy...
many people took picture too...
hahaha...

Happy interning...

City of Sorrows

I'll be leaving Melaka soon... the City of sorrows I called it... the place where I was born and grew up... I never left for more than a week before... or did I? cant remember... this is my first time leaving for so long... 3 months to be exact... actually I could do my training in Melaka if I want to... but I chose not to... I made that decision long ago before the ITP matter came up... long ago after I knew about the ITP when I enter MMU 4 years or so ago...

The reason I'm also not sure myself... I'm trying to be independent... I always thought that I am an independent person since secondary school... cause I am mostly home alone after school till late evening around 5pm when my mom came back from work... and during the holiday I'll be alone since the very morning where my parent went to work... I'll cooked my own lunch and do my own stuff... but guess I was wrong... since I entered MMU, everthing is different...

I guess I'm not that independent anyway... I depend on friends and family when I face problems... I did not dare to take the first steps... did not dare to do anything alone... I'm a shy person... but during the years in MMU... I did changed... although sometimes I still depend on others... but I had taken the first step more than before... and also speak out my mind... but that wasn't enough... my sister and brother sometimes poke fun at me that I wasn't independent enough... even some of my friends told me that... but that is about to change...

This city has given me joy and also pain... but if you ask me which is more... I would say 'pain'... because as humans, we tend to remember bad stuff more than happy stuff... happy times are like chocolate that melts in your mouth... once it's finish, you cant remember what kind of sweetness it is... but you remember that it is sweet... but bad times are like scars and tattoos... it cut deep to the skin and left a permanent mark... and forgeting the mark is like trying to forget a part of you...

Being in this city and being in my room is suffocating... it's hard to breath properly... and recently so many problems are falling on me... I really need a change of scene... or am I just running away... hopefully making this choice is a right one... people say life is like a roller coaster... sometimes it's smooth... but sometimes it's bumpy... life is also like riding a ferris wheel... at some point in life, you'll be at the very top of the ferris... enjoying the view and amazed by its beauty... but at some point, you'll be at the very bottom... no sceneries, nothing... the point of my life now is like that... I'm at the very bottom of the ferris... but no matter if you are riding a roller coaster or a ferris wheel... it's basically the same... c'est la vie...

I won't give up on life... there are still so many things to see, hear, taste, try and learn... I'm just having my pre-test in life... once I pass this test... everything will be fine... alhough there will be more test after that... but that's how life works... it test you non-stop... it's about learning... and learning I will... so, wish me all the best... and I wish everyone all the best too... bonne chance!

It's a whole new beginning...

It's 25th today

Today I spend my birthday morning at Pantai hospital... went for check up again today... meet the doctor and he check my hand for less than 5 minutes and we're done... nothing much he said... just that I should be very careful and there's still some movement that I'm restricted to do... and within this 3 months to 6 months, I should not be doing those activities that could probably make my shoulder joint fall off again...

After that went to Tesco with my parents... bought some daily stuff for me and some food for my training... like I'm going to move out lidet... on the way home tapau-ed lunch... late that evening, Arif ajak went out... so I went out again with him.. he drove... went MP again cause he wanna buy some stuff... had dinner at BK... seriously the burger had no standard... McD's burger are still better and cheaper too... he fetch me home and he said he's going back KL tonight by bas...

I went home and took a shower... get prepare and pack my stuff for my training... I'm going KL tomorrow... but not going to the hostel yet... ya, the company I'll be working provide a hostel... neway, I'll be going my sister place and stay a day there first... she's having BBQ tomorrow night... so Monday I'll only be going to the hostel... and according to a friend working there and staying at the hostel... there's nothing there... an empty house with only a matress...

This is my luggages...
there's another bag for food and daily stuffs... hahaha...
macam mau pindah...

Hmm...
what I forget to bring ar?

Not the same

I've been caging in my room since Saturday after my final paper... most of the time I'm in my room watching dramas or anime or just browsing around and trying to solve my ITP problem... as of today, it consider solve as I called the lecturer and he said:"do not worry about that... it's just a small matter... just go and do your training..." felt a little relieved hearing that... but I'm still a little worried...

Neway, yesterday Yenmei and me decided to meet before I went KL for my training this weekend... we had McD for lunch but she did not quite enjoy it... we talked and craped... and we watched House Bunny at DP... funny show... then we walk around shopping for working cloths... she bought some and I bought one... we had dinner at Sushi King... din expect to have dinner but since so late dy and we still shopping... so might as well lo... hahaha... read her post for more details... I really enjoy her accompany... and I really need to 'live' my life and take a deep breath...

This trimester had really been a bumpy ride... many things happened and with FYP and ITP to add to the weight... it's not the same dy... everything changed... I felt most of my friends changed too... not only friends in MMU but other friends too... I dunno, I just had the feeling it's different... might be because they are working dy... gain experience and the stress they facing... sometimes I also have the feeling I do not know them anymore... what will happened after 3 months? after our training...

Maybe I am the one that changed... problems after problems... and to add to it, my right hand fall off... I was kinda lucky cause it hapenned during the holiday before the final exams... if not, I wont be taking the exams and have to take supplimentary papers... but during the holiday is also kinda boring... especially when you cant do anything... it feels lonely... and it just sucks the life out of you... sometimes before I fall asleep at night... I still had the memories of that day... the pain and everything... and today is exactly the 1 month anniversary of "Kelvin's hand fall off"... now, my hands are getting better dy... but it's not the same...

Ohya...
Happy birthday!
Poingee...

Lonely 'independence'

Today is my last paper of the trimester... finally, it's over... after a long 2 weeks of suffering from lack of sleep and stuffing my brain with theories... I can finally let go of everthing... relieve is the word... I know I've been moody the whole exam week... I don't talk to anyone and just keeping quiet... it had been hard for me... so please understand what I'm going through...

Anywho, after the exam today... thought of could lepak or just hang around some where... but the 2 persons that I most wanted to see and hang out with are not around... one went back to home town after the exam, and the other went for Cameron trip... so sad...

So I called up my friends to see whether they're around and free... they are in Malacca... but the problem is that we don't have transport... me on the other hand can't drive so far yet although I've been driving to campus for my papers... so, no hanging around...

The last resort I took is went out with my parent... mom say she wanted to go JJ to buy some stuffs... so I tag along... and since I tag along, she canceled to cook dinner and decided to have dinner outside... went JJ and I bought a pant for my training... there aren't much people around... went to supermarket mom bought some stuff and went back... stop at Bukit Baru to have dinner... char kuey tiao and chee cheong fan... long time din have those dy...

What a sad end to my trimester before the training... after this won't be seeing them for 3 months or so... it's like a rainy ending to a nice day... oh well, guess I have to 'celebrate' it by myself... hmm... think I'll watch Heroes season 3... hahaha... yes, the new season has started... wee~ hopefully it's not as disappointment like season 2... other dramas also has started such as Grey's Anatomy season 5, Private Practice season 2 and House season 5... hehehe... so, typing off...

No trinka trinka for me I guess...

I love Chiffon cakes

Mom bake chiffon cakes today...
she got a new chiffon mold...
which are made of silicon...
it could stand heat up to 250 degrees...
I help too...



We make this first...
but it turns out too small...
I alone could finish that...
bro is coming back with his friends...



so we make another...
by doubling the recipe...
looks like bread loaf...

Tomorrow is my last paper...

Trinka trinka

OLIVIA - Trinka trinka
Trinka trinka is word that she created that means Excited, Laugh, Giggle, Fun, and all the synonym of that...

No one is around
You're making it all up
Time to disarm yourself
Because when you are free
And act naturally
Something begins to happen

Slowly I, see you
Wake out of a very serious snoozing
Right eye, left eye
I feel like on a verge of a big surprise

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Internal carousel queues an upright rainbow
Sending out a friendly glimmer

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Calling out on a big shift
It knows we are laughing
Together we laugh

This space is open
You're creating in it
I know when you're doing it with joy
Because it has a shine
No words can explain
It reaches out and touches me

In your rhythm
Some may not understand what you are doing
Oh! behave! now
All of a sudden anything seems possible

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Possibilities inspiration galore
Inhale and exhale at the same time

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Look what is found
So much to discover
It's never over

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Internal carousel queues an upright rainbow
Sending out a friendly glimmer

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Calling out on a big shift
It knows we are laughing
Together we laugh

Trinka trinka...
trying to be...

I'm not happy

Notes are too plain...
see also muak...
need some colours...



With so many notes to read...
so little time...
who'll be happy?

Hope I wont lose it...

Relationship

*Continuation from previous post*

I think both wont be happy cause both are so full of themselves... they forgotten the people around them or themselves... one live all by himself leaving his friends and family... the other thinks too much of his friends and family and ignore himself... it shouldn't be this way... there's a saying: too much of a good thing is bad... everything should be in average... like Person C...

Person C: A selfless person that sometimes are selfish too... he do stuff depending on what he is doing and put either himself or others as first priority... when a friend ask for help, he would help if he is capable of it... and whether he is in the condition to do so...

Relationship among humans are tough... you can't read the mind of what the other is thinking about... and you won't know what will the other do or react... all you could do is be yourself... stay firm... you can't control what others say or do... but you could control how you react to it... being selfless is not the best way... sometimes, you should be selfish too... depending on the situation and condition you're in...

Friendship, love, define it anyway you want... but some people just don't get it... friendship they will think is among friends... love, they will think is among lovers... friendship and love could be the same... it could be define is many way... friendship among friends, friendship among families, love among lovers, love among friends, love among families and so on...

'I miss you', 'I like you', 'I love you'... normally when you see or hear that, you will think of lovers... but actually you could use it to anyone... to a friend that you din see for a long time: I miss you... to a very best friend that understands you: I live you... to family members cause you'll be going far away: I love you... you could use it any where...

Well, most people have the wrong concept or idea or whatever you call it... but this can't be blame... cause we are in a multicultural country... and the custom here is different... people here are not that open minded as it is in other countries...

Not sure what's the point of me posting this... kinda emo recently... too much to think... and exams just around the corner...

haih~

Who is happier?

Person A: A totally selfish jerk that only thinks of himself... no matter what he do, he put himself as first priority... he don't care what others think... as long as he get what he wants... when a friend ask for help, he will consider for awhile thinking of his condition... or he would just reject it without thinking cause he just don't feel like helping...

Person B: A totally selfless person that no matter what he do he always think of others first before himself... he always consider others feeling and put his aside... when a friend ask for help, he would surely say yes as long as he is capable of it without thinking twice...

*The above does not particularly convey to anyone or anyone that I know*

So, who is happier?

My coursework marks sux...
a week more to go...
I'm doomed...

A Swedish Weekend

*Edited - change the title to a more suitable one

Last Saturday was my cheack up with the doctor... went to Pantai around 10am and waited a while for my turn... after 15 minutes or so my name was called and went in to see the doctor... the doctor check my hand a while and take off the plaster that 'tied' my shoulder to my body... finally I could move my hand... but not as free as it was... it's still weak and the doctor told me some not-to for the time being for at least 3 weeks or a month... he also said that I could not play badminton for the time being for at least 3 months... other sports such as climbing and swimming also are not allowed... lifting heavy stuff are a no no...cause it hurts... have to go for a check up again at the end of October...

So, after the appointment... we went to KL to visit my sister... my brother-in-law just came back from Sweden for a business training there for 3 weeks... Sweden have their own language and currency (forget call what, Kro-something)... the standard of living there are high and the stuff are damn expensive... my brother-in-law say the cheapest food there is hotdogs in a bun which cost RM50 a piece... yes, you din see wrongly and I din type wrongly... it's RM50.00 (fifty, lima puluh, wu shi, go zap, em sap, go ju, cinquante)...the spaghetti and pizzas also cost around that... there's Mc Donalds there... in their currency of course...

Neway, at night, we had Tony Roma's for dinner at Sunway Piramid... the food there okay la... the appetizer is nice... especially the prawn salad (forget name and forget take picture... hehe...)... the main dish was so so only... is almost the as TGIF... my sister say last time (dont know how long dy), their food is nice... but now is not that nice dy... less people come to eat too... below are some pictures I took...

This is their famous main course... a bit dry... but they got give four different kind of sauce for you to choose... cost about RM60.00...

This is also dry... dont have any sauce... but okay la... dont have the mutton smell... cost about RM50.00...

This the fish is not fresh... but ok la... cost about RM40.00...

I ordered this... the salmon is also not fresh... and it's over cooked cause the meat is kinda hard... cost about RM40.00...

So if you decided to go for western food... I suggest you go for TGIF... ohya, both restoran have free flow for soft drinks and ice lemon tea... so you could share among each other to save up... after dinner it's almost 10pm dy... so we walk around a bit to shake off the fats... then went back to see pictures taken by my brother-in law in Sweden... it's so clean there... the weather there is cloudy-like the whole year around... and snow during winter... there is not a single sun light... the buildings all looks so fake like cupboard or drawings...

Today (Sunday), went to IKEA (product of Sweden) for lunch at its food court... there's a lot of people and the food there are not so bad... the price was reasonable too about the same price as fast food... after lunch went shopping at IKEA (duh!)... they really have great ideas that you never thought of... some just amazed you... and you would just WOW! to some of it... my sister bought some stuff for her house as well as my parent for ours... as for me, I bought the following... hehehe...

As you can see... it's white in colour... match my lappie... hahaha... now I could roll from here to there and back... although it's not that comfy... but it still better than nothing... what do you expect from a RM45 chair... at least better than my old chair... got wheels but cannot roll... more comfortable one will cost you at least RM100 to begin with... no money la... put a pillow below than okay dy lo... hahaha...

Anywho, after that we went to my brother's house to rest a while and have some coffee... since his house is near there... around 5pm we left and went back to my sister's house... pack our stuff and head back to malacca... my dog so happy to see us... so manja...

What a weekend... released myself totaly... well, not totally la... but still a lot... a week living in disability is so troublesome... I really feel for all the diasabled people... they've been living in disability for their whole life... but me, just for a week I complaining dy... haih~ anywho, now I could do stuff normally again... but my right hand are still not that strong... it's not completely recover yet... still hurt sometimes... well, I'm going off now... typing off...

P.S.:I'm typing this with my both hands... hehehe... and I could wear my shirts normally again...

It's 'raining'...
but I haven start my revisions...
the storm is coming...

All eyes on me

Yesterday my friends ask me to lepak... I feel kinda lazy and tired... and in my current condition some more... I thought of not going but went anyway since my friends seldom come back... we went to MP, Daryl drove... went there shop a little but nothing to buy... then Arif decided to cut hair at Backstage... orang kaya... around 6.45pm he still haven done... been there almost an hour... Daryl have to get back around 7pm... so we left Arif...

During the lepak time... everyone was looking at me... some look shock... some look pity (mostly older people)... some look disgusted, as though I am a freak or some kind of being... I did not pay much attention to them of course... I went on with what we do like normal... but I hate the feelings... I don't even know what I'm feeling...

Around 8+pm, Arif called and ask wanna watch movie not... sweat... he say Daryl is fine with it as long as I'm fine with it... around 9.30, Daryl came and fetched me and met Arif at MP cinema... wanted to go DP but the showing time is not suitable... we watched Painted Skin.. not bad la... it's a China flim that speaks Mandarin... it's about a lady which is a demon that eats people heart for her to stay young... it's an action thriller with quite a number of fights... there are a few funny scene too... I give 7/10...

I need a friend...
someone that understands...

No-bake Oreo Cheesecake

My mom and me decided to make a no-bake Oreo cheesecake today... and it turn out fine... but a little soft... but it taste like the real one... anyway, here's the recipe if you're interested...

No-bake Oreo Cheesecake

• 2 blocks of Philadelphia cream cheese
• 1 can of Condense milk
• 1 tablespoon of Vanilla essence
• Half a lemon
• Digestive biscuits (for the base)
• 1/4 block of Butter (for the base)
• And of course, OREO Biscuit!! =P

NOTE: You can replace digestive biscuits with any kind of biscuits you like.

For the base:

1. Melt butter and wait for it to cool.
2. Smash digestive biscuit into crumbs.
3. Mix melted butter into biscuits crumbs.
4. Flatten a thin layer the mixture onto a pan.
5. Put inside the freezer and wait for it to harden.

For the cheesecake:

1. Mix Philadelphia cream cheese, condense milk, vanilla essence, and lemon juice until the mixture is thick and smooth.
2. Crush Oreo biscuits into crumbs
3. Mix Oreo crumbs into the mixture when it is thick and smooth.
4. Pour the mixture onto the biscuit base.
5. Freeze it for around 3 to 4 hours.
6. Sprinkle the top with chocolate powder and serve.

The recipe is kinda not that complete... we agak-agak and came out with a conclusion...

• if you using McVities digestive biscuit, half a packet is enough.
• a packet of Oreo biscuit is sufficient.
• as for the butter, you have to approximate yourself depending on the digestive biscuit or other biscuit you use. mix the melted butter and biscuit till you could feel it will hold.
• when you done, put it in the freezer. remember to wrap/close it with plastic or your cake will froze. after 3 or 4 hours or till it harden, put it in the bottom fridge.

Here, have a piece... ;)

I uploaded a nicer picture... hehe...

P.S.: Just for your record, I did not typed the whole recipe... I copied and pasted it... it's from my sister who sent it to me... she made it before and it was nice... but she use Oreo biscuit for the base too... but take off the cream...

I hate the feeling I'm feeling...

Pocket

大塚愛 - ポケット
Ai Otsuka - Poketto (Pocket)

Our hands secretly held together
Within your pocket
Is so that nobody else will know.
Secretly, our love deepened.

My feelings,
Don't know about a thing such as change.
However many short years ago it may have been
I always thought dearly about you.
Secretly, my love deepens.

I don't want to be your heavy burden,
I'll warm that chapped hand
of yours
Because I'll always be by your side.

Disturbing your pocket
When admiring your tall, slanted face;
look straight ahead!
Sometimes I shyly laugh.

Try your best to eat the food I made
Sometimes I shyly laugh
at your kind and gentle thoughts (with regards to Ai's cooking)

I don't want to be your burden.
From now, starting anew
Let's walk together again,
Let's become a lovely couple

You are the one I love the most within this world
so I don't believe I'll lose.
Within this pocket
Because I'll always be by your side
Because I'll always be by your side

Feel like crying...
dunno why...

Lightning struck

The calm din even last more than two days...
and lightning struck...
soon rain gonna come...
and a storm will happen...

It sucks the life out of me...

My so called life

Why...
couldn't...
things...
go...
right...
for...
once...
in...
my...
life...

Kill me...

Muffins

Aunts and uncle coming...
mom bake muffins...

One-hand man...

The DAY

Wednesday, 24th of September 2008 is a day I'll never forget... that day is suppose to be our last badminton day of the trimester... which suppose to be fun and all... but half an our after we started... accident happened.. while I was trying to hit and I did hit the shutter, my right shoulder joint fall off... it hurts like hell... then Poingee sent me to the hospital...

What happened after that is pain pain and more pain... that's what I felt... after an hour or so, the doctor came and gave me some shots.. what happened after that I had no idea... when I woke up, around 8pm or so, I'm already in a wad room... I saw my dad... I didnt know what happened... then my dad told me everything... my shoulder is back in its place... but still hurt a little... then my dad went back to fetch my mom... mom cooked some porridge... I couldn't sleep the whole night...

The next morning was bored... nothing to do... had breakfast of porridge again... totally different from my mom's... then I basically sit there and listen to the uncles and aunties talk... a cousin of mine came and visit around 9+am... she came for some check up... later dad came around 10am... then I get ready and went to the ITP briefing... what a waste of time... it finished less than an hour... then went to JJ with Yen a while cause she wanna shop... I don't look sick or hurt at all... that's what she said... after that she sent me back to the hospital... teman me a while while waiting for my parent... discharge at 3pm...

Haih~ what a day, or two... this morning woke up... dad wa saying my injuries might caused by last time when I fall... it was raining and I slipped and fall on my right hand... quite a big impact... after the fall my right hand feels weak... maybe that IS the cause... so don't take anything unseriously...

I really don't have the mood to blog about this... cause the slight thought of what happened that day still haunt me... the pain and all... but thanks to my friends I'm fine... typing this with only my left hand is killing me too... I'm now at home resting and all... ahould be fine... just doing stuffs is a little troublesome...

I'm fine...
I guess...

Calm before the Storm

Finally I finish all my assignments... today is my final assignment of the trimester... can relax dy... hahaha... basically this were suppose to be study week... most of the assignments were suppose to be passed up last Friday... but we ask the lecturer to extend to today... other course mates have finished with theirs... they're already relaxing for days dy... while I still struggling on my last assignment... now that it is done... I can enjoy my litle break before starting my revision for the finals...

Basically, if this week is included... I have 3 weeks of break before my finals... it's equavalent to my trimester break dy.... hahaha... this is due to the extra week for the raya... final exam start on the 6th of October... but my first paper is on the 13th... hahaha... but my last paper is on the 18th, last day of finals... so I might as well enjoy it till the end of this week...

After the finals, we have only a week or so of break... then we'll be starting our internshp dy... hmm.... the working environment sounds kinda fun and challenging... but there are some worries too... what if this and what if that... but I try not to thnk much of it... what may be will be... it's kinda sad thinking of all that... especially after the finals... it means I won see my friends for 3 months or so... every meeting has an end... that's what people say... after the training, we'll meet again in campus... for we'll be having our last trimester before we graduate... and thinking what is beyond that... it's kinda scary at times... so lets not go there now...

Well, I do hope we'll have more time to hang out together and doing stuff... but at this moment of time... most people are in study mode... they dont have any mood to hang around... susah susah dulu, senang senang kemudian... but sometimes, we should senang senang dulu, susah susah kemudian... but if you organized your time properly... you could senang senang dulu, senang senang kemudian... if something goes wrong... you'll end up susah susah dulu, susah susah kemudian... hahaha... what the heck am I talking about you might ask... I also dont know... basically, just do what you like to do and enjoy life... but dont forget the importand thing you should do too...

Well, I starting to talk crape dy... so I should go... typing off... and enjoy your break or study weeks or whatever you call it... dont too stress youself kay...

ぼくたちのきょりはとおいな...

Fingers crossed

The interview was quite a long one... actually, I spent most of the time filling a form a doing 2 personal test... yes, TWO personal test... they want to know you personalities... shrugs...

The interview was at 3pm... but afraid that we (my parents, brother and me) could not find the place and it might jam on the way... we left my sister house around 12.30pm to have lunch and find the place... it was kinda far... around 30 minutes to the place... but actually it was kinda easy to find the place using the kesas highway... just straight all the way and turn after the Econsave... the company is just a normal shop house... they have two main department; support department and developement department...

We reached there at 2pm... the fellow was kinda shock I reached so much earlier than expected... so she ask me to fill in a form and ask me to do 2 personal test... damn long questions... took me 1 hour to finish... later is the interview... a guy interviewed me... he was a MMU graduate too... looks kinda young around his 30's I guess... he ask some basic questions and ask me some of my projects... I told him about the Multimedia assignment and the Microprocessor project... he was kinda impressed by the Microp project...

Then he asked me why I'm applying an IT job as I'm an engineer... I told him I'm a Computer Engineer so I learned a little of engineering and a little of IT stuff... so basically could find jobs in both fields... I also told him that some of my friends also finding an IT jobs... some of the questions I craped my way through... hahaha... but have some truth in some of them... :p hopefully I din make a fool of myself...

That's basically all about the interview la... so glas it's over... they say they provide hostel... if they have an empty place they'll give it to me... still, I have to wait for their confirmation to take me... *crossed fingers*

Tired and lazy to do anything...
procrastination...

Lifeless

Today is the last day of FYP presentation... went to some friends' presentation... when you look at their presentation and their demo... it feels like mine is like nothing... theirs is like hardware stuff, detectors, simulation, etc... mine is just words and pictures... nothing else... haih~

Been feeling kinda weird recently... especially after my presentation... is like it had taken the life force out of me... feel so tired although I had enough of sleep... don't have the mood to do anything at all... I still have class for next week... some of my friends had finish all their lectures... so nice... while I still have lectures for a week due to the lecturer keep postponing or canceling class... still have 2 more assignments to pass up... both on next Friday... one of them have presentation but the other I'm not quite sure... both are group assignments...

My sister and brother coming back tomorrow... cause this Sunday is Mooncake Festival... gonna discuss some stuff about my training too... I got a reply from the company I sent my resume to... they're asking for an interview next Monday... so I'll be following them back to KL... my parent going up too of course... most probably coming back on Tuesday since the interview is at 3pm...hopefully they won't ask me some difficult questions... wish me luck kay...

Been craving for sweet stuff recently especially chocolates... I don't know why... suddenly just have the urge to have sweet stuffs... something is wrong with me... chocolate anyone? I mean, anyone have chocolate?

きみはしっていますか？

Presented

Finally I'm done with my FYP presentation... been so nervous the pass few days... editing slides everyday cause would not want anything to be messy or missing... today woke up at 10.30am and the time tic toc tic toc soooo slowly... is like the slowest day in my life...

After lunch went to the venue around 2.30pm... my slot was at 4.05pm... watched the other 4 persons before me... all kena bombard by supervisor... when it's my turn, which are earlier then expected around 3.45pm... me too kena bombard by supervisor... like kena lecture... but the moderator didn't asked any questions... at the end he say my slides was similiar to the person before me, Louis... so I explain it's cause our project has the same concept of database... we did discuss among ourselves but are done individually.. later he say okay and it's quite a good title... phew~ sweat...

Basically that's how it went... later went to some other friends presentation... most of my friends presented today... some tomorrow and a few on Friday... will go to their's if I'm around campus... so I'm done my first part of my FYP... wohoo~ hahaha... to those presenting tomorrow or day after that... all the best... bonne chance!

Finally...
chocolate...

Bonne chance!

This is our French lecturer...
last Thursday is our last class...
she's leaving Malaysia on the 14th of this month...
going back to her country, Palestine to teach...
she say she might or might not come back...
merci et bonne chance...
au revoir...

そばにいてほしい...

Pappala~

Today morning was supposed to be hectic... meeting supervisor was supposed to be at 10am... went there but there's people inside... waited outside with the others (5 of us) for 50 (fifty, lima puluh, wu shi, go zab, em sap, go juu, cinquante) minutes... discuss a while about the slides and presentation... then around 11.30am a lecturer came in and say they they're gonna have a R&D meeting... 5 minutes before 12pm, we were dismissed... supposed to have rehersal but he say change to Monday...

So I went to make the car sticker... then have lunch with Poingee and CC... so tired, so I decided to skip all evening class... hahaha... took the whole day after that to slow down my pace... kinda hectic the pass few days... was kinda bored... hahaha... spend my evening helping my dad kemas stuff... then played game... been playing addicted to Music Catch... is just a simple game la... the point is to 'catch' the notes/shapes... the songs is nice... if you download it, you could play using your own songs... but is only trial version for 30 minutes... if you want the full version ask from me...

I also try out the new Google Chrome... is a new browser which is by Google (duh!)... very fast download and easy peasy to install... and you could transfer you bookmarks or whatever from FireFox or IE... it has a simple design and kinda cool la... it's also kinda fast when loading pages... try it out... you might like it...

Basically I din do anything today... just have my own sweet time doing stuff I like... play games, watch animes, read blogs.... but my fyp haven done yet... hehehe... tomorrow gonna finish up the slides... then hopefully can finish the report too... supervisor ask for report... well, au revoir for now...

I wan chocolate...

Whack!

Went for badminton today...
although I say that I'm busy in the previous post...
but I just have to take a break...



getting out for some fresh air is needed...
even though the court is badly ventilated...
but whacking is fun...
played at Kipspot...



there's a lot of stray dogs around...
and 3 puppies...
adorable~



so relaxing~
wish I could be like that...
the day seems to be nice...
cloudly and warm with a little breeze...
but after badminton around 6pm...
it rained...

Sort of like my mood today...
a cause de toi...

Hectic

I'm currently busy with:
1. FYP
- ERD
- normal form
- dependency diagram
- GUI
- presentation slides
- report
- presentation on 10th September
2. Assignments
- law [group] (this Wednesday due)
- database [group] (due around 12 September)
- security [group] (due around 12 September)
3. ITP
- sent my resume
- waiting for reply
4. study
- database midterm this Wednesday
- 6 chapters
- only read flip through 2 chapters
5. classes
- lots of uncertain replacements classes (database, French, security)
- make it hard for me to organize my time
6. badminton
- wanna play but can't
- too many stuffs to do/think
- *whack whack*

I'm still a mess...
heck!
I mean hec-tic...

No Rain, No Rainbow

Home Made Kazoku - No Rain, No Rainbow
Naruto Shippuuden movie 2 theme song:

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop

No rain no rainbow, I gently
Wipe the dripping water away from my eyes
Before I know it, the rain's stopped
Silence envelops me
The rainbow arch has appeared
So that I'll say something

The smell of the asphalt after the rain puts me at ease
My worn out heart suddenly begins to dance
I dance in a puddle, below that rainbow
I take a step forward with my sneakers that are soaked through

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
Uh. Ah. The thing that I saw to make me weep all day long
Was the light that dyes my heart in rainbow colors

[Chorus]
The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop
Inside my wounded heart
A bright rainbow is out
Yes, everything will start from here
It will clear up one day, no rain no rainbow

The day will come when I feel nostalgic
Even about the worries that I have right now
Until then, it's alright to cry
This is the passing point of a long life
It's alright to stop moving sometimes
Until it's washed away by the tears

It might all just be for nothing
I've thought that so many times
I've sacrificed everything
And I've thought about giving up
But instead of living my life making to someone else
As to why I can't do it
If I can't do it, then even though it may be awkward
I should go up against it in my own way

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
The thing that I saw so vaguely in the sky above
Was the light that shines on tomorrow in rainbow colors

[Chorus]

Everyone is carrying pain around with them
Certainly right now, we're testing tested
Even on those sleepless nights, stand firm and endure
Endure even in painful situations
Because those days will make you stronger

It pierces through a crack in the clouds so brightly
The light envelops everything

[Chorus]

In order to rescue myself from this monochrome world
I'm going to dab in some rainbow colors without making a sound

Meaningful song...