Rain

June’s lies and the truth in front of my eyes
are put away in sepia tones
Nestling close to one another, warmth;
I don’t understand those things anymore

“You’ll be fine on your own… right?” you said,
forcing it upon me and then you said goodbye
If it’s going to be that kind of consolation,
then I should be tired of hearing it by now

Endlessly ringing; the merciless memories
seem to have no intention of forgiving me
If I close my eyes
they will only grow surrounding me at a distance; your laugh

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder?
For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain choose to fall on me?
Why does it choose me who has nowhere to escape to?

Time intrudes on the new morning I finally found
The direction I face is not the future, I kept chasing after the past

You, who gave me a new start by your consolations
and the hateful and cowardly me
It’s about time… Fumbling,
my troubles spill down my tired cheeks

Eyes that don’t want to know the past
and fingers that can wash it all away
Scars heal at a gentle pace;
at an unreachable distance that seems to be within reach

Will the rain ever stop, I wonder?
For a pretty long time now it’s been cold
Why does the rain choose to fall on me?
I wonder if it’s okay to let it cover me

The rain keeps on falling today as well knowing no end
While we quietly nestle together under the umbrella I hold
-SID (Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood)

Will it stop raining on me?

RED LINE ~for TA~

We turned our tears into just one prayer
The miracle we saw at the moment on that day is not an illusion
But we are lost in our daily lives, to our sadness, aren't we?

If you have a feeling of despair, please remember
"This day called today on which you are going to give up,
Is the tomorrow on which somewhere, someone didn't want to give up."
And that I'm tightly, tightly
Holding your hands

I want to accept this sunrise again as a precious thing
Please don't be afraid of the step you want to take forward

If you run into a wall, please remember
"This day called today on which you are going to lose,
Is the tomorrow on which somewhere, someone wanted to fight."
And that your hands are connected to ours
However far away it may be

If you have a feeling of despair, please remember
that I'm tightly, tightly
Holding your hands
-Ayumi Hamasaki

A meaningful song...
love the words in quotes...

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'll whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

なぜか？
キミを見た。。。

Situasi

Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu
Dan aku, ku layu
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...

Kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
Menempuh hidup yang ku temui
Dan aku, ku tunggu... oh oh oh
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...
-Bunkface

Aku tak paham kenapa...

SIGN

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead, with this scar

Go ahead and forget, go ahead and stop feeling
I covered up my wounded heart

It's fine if I get hurt, cause I don't feel pain anymore
Even while dragging those feet along

I lost sight of myself
the sound rose and fell
Before I knew it, it was just the sound of the wind...

That comes to tell me, follow the scar
Before you're crushed by the world
Do you remember? The teary sky

That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you

More than a strength that doesn't cause wounds, a kindness that can't wound
Some part of that voice seems sad

Like undoing buttons, heart and body separated
take grasp of your heart one more time

I've found it, that crying voice
No doubt, that's right, it was my own
All of it was for this moment...

I'm sure from the beginning, I always knew
That I wouldn't ever let go of myself again
You noticed, a SIGN to you
That pain protected you

I've come to tell you, follow the scar
If you do, there's nothing more to fear...
Don't forget okay? The reason for smiling

That pain protected you
That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you
-FLOW (Naruto Shippuuden beginning song)

今の気持ち。。。
嫌い。。。嫌いよ。。。

I want to know what love is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

Chorus:
I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is
I know you can show me

Gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love's finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

Chorus (x2)

I want to know what love is
I want you to show me
-Mariah Carey

Dont really like her new album to be honest... only a few songs that appeal to me such as this one and the one radio kept playing: obsessed and another entitle Angels Cry... her songs are like usual R&B... but to me it all sounds the same... and if you have watch the Obsessed video, the dude is actually her... yeap... I lazy to put up youtube here cause my line kinda sucky...

Who can show me?

Through my window

Currently in Melaka... through my window is the kitchen... if in Puchong, is the back alley with some plants... love this song the first time I heard it on TV... its the TM advertisement, where a paper guy swing across to the paper girl... the song is by Bunkface, a Malaysian band... not bad huh... Malaysia band also have great bands and song like OAG and Extranged... not that I hear their song la... hear on radio only... hehe..

I Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it’s just another day
Telling me why, I’ll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me

Now there’s me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real
- Bunkface

Home sweet home...

to me

hey, who are you? why are you in that sort of place,
hugging your knees and crying?
...you are the way I am sometimes
you're sad from being the only one left behind, aren't you?

frollicking with the wind and greenery
the earth is kind upon your bare feet
the endless sketched dream as it is...
...as it is not knowing that it would end someday

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

you can't believe in yourself...
who would believe in you?
it should be ok to have confidence... one more time, muster up courage

I don't doubt where this road is heading
I will get there someday, I go on believing so
There may be some days you want to give up
because it is a little too cold to walk barefooted...

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

continue to walk onward
- Ai Otsuka (Sabakan Version)
from Tokyo Friends

ココロがいたい。。。

FRIENDS

Ai Otsuka - フレンズ (Furenzu)
We tried walking so far, walking holding nothing.
Even now, that day, having met you, is treasure.

I didn't want you to be able to see my profile hidden by the sunset.
Tiny tears came one by one and
Gently, I let go of your hand.

Surely, if we could have said good-bye,
Could we have forgotten more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
I'll be able to say "thank you"...

The laughing voice I hear from that picture has resonated such a long way.
My tears stood alone miserably, gutlessly and
I pretended to be a bad person on purpose.

Surely, if we could have said it like always,
Would we have been able to laugh more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
We can say it like always...

Surely, if we could have said "don't forget,"
Would we have been able to believe that?
I want to become just a little stronger
So that I can become calmer.

Surely, if we could have said good-bye,
Could we have forgotten more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
I'll be able to say "thank you"...

We tried walking so far, walking holding nothing.
Even now, that day, having met you, is treasure.

キミへ。。。
僕の気持ち。。。

Doll

Ai Otsuka - 人形 (Ningyou)
Wanting to be a good girl,
I gave up all of my freedom
I would have become a boy even,
had mother wished for it

The pregnant little girl walked around
cutting her heels on shards of glass,
heading towards her own execution grounds

I feel no pain, I feel no joy
as my heart slowly begins to die,
starting from the surface of my face

All I ever wanted was friends
and so I chose them with reckless abandonment
I only wanted someone to treat me gently,
and so I moved in with a man

If only I had taken more care of myself
then I could've become more human
instead of this empty, emotionless doll

This pain I feel, this loneliness I feel
Yet nobody is here to save me

I'll try my best in the city
and so I wished upon a star:
"I want to become human"

心が痛みます。。。

My answer

Was hook to this song from the latest ending song of Naruto Shippuuden... it just stick there the first time I listened to it and straight a way I download it... in the translation in the sub by Taka fansub, it's so funny... where they translate the first line to 'take off your shirt and pants"... I was like wad the... cause I know a little Japanese... so I went to find the translation... and I was right... hehe... enjoy!



Seamo - My Answer
Now, in no hurry just go slow
Go slowly, you believe your own pace

The world is tricky because it is not
I made a tough test from God's
Humanities? Science? Solve moral would you rather do it?
This is like a serious knock in life

We asked many times if you get lost troubled
Chase frantically looking for not a single answer

Now, in no hurry just go slow
Go slowly, you believe your own pace

Are you are you suffering from the same water as I empty it?
Are the solar wind, when you are crying in silence?
The next thing to fear is failure, it does not matter if We Fight!!
I'm living proof of the paper is covered with scars
Do not even be embarrassed by it
Rather, one of a screw into one of the two

We asked many times if you get lost troubled
Chase frantically looking for answers not a single

Now, in no hurry just go slow
Go slowly, you believe your own pace

In this white paper to write the future
Connecting lines of the points with a pen
Your only answer

I could teach you in my future now
I continue to follow up your efforts to change the confidence

Now, in no hurry just go slow
Go slowly, you believe your own pace

There is no rush...
believe in your own pace...
everything gonna be fine...

again

Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood opening
Even though I must have been pursuing, The continuation of my dream
On a narrow, winding road, I trip over other people

It’s not that I want to return to, How it was like back then
I’m searching, For the sky that I’ve lost
I wish that you’ll understand me

Stop making that sad face, Like you’ve been sacrificed
There aren’t tears at the end of sins, I’ve painfully bore them all this time

In the labyrinth of emotions where I can’t see the exit, Who am I waiting for?
As if having written it in a white notebook, I want to divulge myself more honestly

What, Do I want to flee from?
…Something known as reality?
So that I can fulfill myself, I’m alive

When it seems like I’ve forgotten about it, In the middle of the night
Because it can’t be done, Safe and sound… There’s no place for me to return to, either

Isn’t life still too long, For erasing these thoughts?
I even welcome such a pain, That turns nostalgic

I’ve got to apologize, ah, I’m sorry
Unable to express it well, You were worried, weren’t you?

Everything that I held back then, Everything that I’ll hold tomorrow
Because I won’t, Put them in order
I wish that you’ll understand me

I quietly closed my eyes, I can even see
The things that I don’t want to see, I get a little annoyed at unnecessary rumors
What was the initial remark like?

If we meet twice, aren’t we friends? So stop lying
As if my red heart is irritated, It’s burning inside of my body

The truth is, I’m anticipating
…Something known as reality?

So that I can fulfill myself, I’m alive
I feel like shouting so, Can you hear me?

Because it can’t be done, Safe and sound
…There’s no place for me to return to, either

I’m always grateful for kindness, So I want to become strong
In order to move on, I welcome friend and foe alike

How can you open, The next door? Are you thinking about it?
I can’t pull back anymore, The story is starting
Wake up, wake up

Isn’t life still too long, For erasing these thoughts?
I have things left to do, Because I want to try redoing them
Let’s go again

So that I can fulfill myself, I’m alive
I feel like shouting so, Can you hear me?

Because it can’t be done, Safe and sound
…There’s no place for me to return to, either

I’m always grateful for kindness, So I want to become strong
I even welcome such a pain, That turns nostalgic
- YUI

Do you have to be like this?

Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces yeah (Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah (Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving)
Oh it don't break even no (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
- The Script

What am I to do...

Tracks of my tears

People say I'm the life of the party
Cause I make a joke or two
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue

So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you

Baby baby baby,
Take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears
I need you, I need you, I need...
- Adam Lambert (American Idol 8)

*Adam din win... my feelings about Kris will win is right...

Hate this time in life...
I dowan to say goodbye...

Sky chord ~to you who has become an adult~

Sky chord ~大人になる君へ~
by: Shion Tsuji

*this song is nice and has a very meaningful lyrics*

I can’t sing a song with straightforward lyrics
Because It always ends with sugar coated words

Since when did someone as lazy as I am learn to protect anything?
What color catches you from the sky visible in the school yard
At times I want the white clouds to turn black too

Dont leave me *sky chord*, you would’ve stayed here back then
I’ve already lost you *sky chord*, this isn’t anyones fault, however

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I’ll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

I wanted to stay up till daybreak when I was a kid
Now being chased with time I don’t even have enough sleep

Dont leave me *sky chord*, you would’ve stayed here back then
I’ve already lost you *sky chord*, I want to teach you

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I’ll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

I know we can’t stay like this forever, so let’t take that first step
Those words I’ve written in the notebook will never be changed

I know there are many more important things than becoming an adult
But I’ll be growing up the whole time figuring out what they are

For I can no longer be like a child



PS: this song is one of the Bleach animation ending

FYP presentation on Friday...
all the best to everyone...

Vulnerable

By: Secondhand Serenade

share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
because its cold outside (cold outside) it's cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside (cold inside) it's cold inside
and your slowly shaking finger tips

show that you're scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don’t care
tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don’t tell me that i am the only one that’s vulnerable
impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
and it's true I can't go on without you
your smile makes me see clearer
if you could only see in the mirror what I see
and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that you're scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know we're unprepared
but I don’t care
tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
impossible

slow down girl you're not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I'm much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn’t mean you shouldn’t bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need
tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
impossible

Suck up...

Slow Me Down

Emmy Rossum - Slow me down
Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding chaotic
Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me, somebody take my hand and lead me
Slow me down, don't let love pass me by
Just show me how, cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down, don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by, I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe
I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Pass me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

Tell me, oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down, don't let love pass me by
Just show me how, cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down, don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by, I need you to slow me down

Just show me, I need you to slow me down
Slow me down, slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe
Somebody please, slow me down

Midterm break...
slowed down?
shrugs...

Trinka trinka

OLIVIA - Trinka trinka
Trinka trinka is word that she created that means Excited, Laugh, Giggle, Fun, and all the synonym of that...

No one is around
You're making it all up
Time to disarm yourself
Because when you are free
And act naturally
Something begins to happen

Slowly I, see you
Wake out of a very serious snoozing
Right eye, left eye
I feel like on a verge of a big surprise

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Internal carousel queues an upright rainbow
Sending out a friendly glimmer

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Calling out on a big shift
It knows we are laughing
Together we laugh

This space is open
You're creating in it
I know when you're doing it with joy
Because it has a shine
No words can explain
It reaches out and touches me

In your rhythm
Some may not understand what you are doing
Oh! behave! now
All of a sudden anything seems possible

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Possibilities inspiration galore
Inhale and exhale at the same time

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Look what is found
So much to discover
It's never over

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Internal carousel queues an upright rainbow
Sending out a friendly glimmer

I'm feeling trinka trinka
It's really happening
My heart is beating steady
But I wanna scream!
Calling out on a big shift
It knows we are laughing
Together we laugh

Trinka trinka...
trying to be...

Pocket

大塚愛 - ポケット
Ai Otsuka - Poketto (Pocket)

Our hands secretly held together
Within your pocket
Is so that nobody else will know.
Secretly, our love deepened.

My feelings,
Don't know about a thing such as change.
However many short years ago it may have been
I always thought dearly about you.
Secretly, my love deepens.

I don't want to be your heavy burden,
I'll warm that chapped hand
of yours
Because I'll always be by your side.

Disturbing your pocket
When admiring your tall, slanted face;
look straight ahead!
Sometimes I shyly laugh.

Try your best to eat the food I made
Sometimes I shyly laugh
at your kind and gentle thoughts (with regards to Ai's cooking)

I don't want to be your burden.
From now, starting anew
Let's walk together again,
Let's become a lovely couple

You are the one I love the most within this world
so I don't believe I'll lose.
Within this pocket
Because I'll always be by your side
Because I'll always be by your side

Feel like crying...
dunno why...

No Rain, No Rainbow

Home Made Kazoku - No Rain, No Rainbow
Naruto Shippuuden movie 2 theme song:

The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop

No rain no rainbow, I gently
Wipe the dripping water away from my eyes
Before I know it, the rain's stopped
Silence envelops me
The rainbow arch has appeared
So that I'll say something

The smell of the asphalt after the rain puts me at ease
My worn out heart suddenly begins to dance
I dance in a puddle, below that rainbow
I take a step forward with my sneakers that are soaked through

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
Uh. Ah. The thing that I saw to make me weep all day long
Was the light that dyes my heart in rainbow colors

[Chorus]
The flowing tears quietly tell me
About the end of something
In the blue sky that I looked up to from between the clouds
Certainly there's no such thing as rain that won't stop
Inside my wounded heart
A bright rainbow is out
Yes, everything will start from here
It will clear up one day, no rain no rainbow

The day will come when I feel nostalgic
Even about the worries that I have right now
Until then, it's alright to cry
This is the passing point of a long life
It's alright to stop moving sometimes
Until it's washed away by the tears

It might all just be for nothing
I've thought that so many times
I've sacrificed everything
And I've thought about giving up
But instead of living my life making to someone else
As to why I can't do it
If I can't do it, then even though it may be awkward
I should go up against it in my own way

No rain no rainbow
The sadness will clear up one day
The thing that I saw so vaguely in the sky above
Was the light that shines on tomorrow in rainbow colors

[Chorus]

Everyone is carrying pain around with them
Certainly right now, we're testing tested
Even on those sleepless nights, stand firm and endure
Endure even in painful situations
Because those days will make you stronger

It pierces through a crack in the clouds so brightly
The light envelops everything

[Chorus]

In order to rescue myself from this monochrome world
I'm going to dab in some rainbow colors without making a sound

Meaningful song...