That DAY

It has been a year...
but it feels like just a few days ago...
too much memories...

キミはどこ？
キミは覚えてる？

In a flash

A moment you are here... the next moment you'll be at a different place... the pass few days passed so fast that I dont have the time to breathe... since it is the raya holiday... my sis ask my parent to go up to KL jalan jalan... we went on Sunday morning and reached around noon... after resting a while we went to Sungei Wang... mom wanna buy shoes... but ended up buying cloths instead... the plaza is so pack with people... and there's some commotion happening on the stage... some Power Station singing contest... after that. we went for dinner some where near USJ... had Korean food... this is my second time having Korean food... the chopstick is so hard to use and heavy... cause it is not like normal one, it is metal and flat...

The next day, went for lunch nearby sis's place... then wait for my bro to come cause he'll going back Melaka too... so after tea time, we went back... spent the whole night doing nothing...resting most of the time and online...

Yesterday, woke up quite early around 10am... waiting for Daryl to come and going visiting to Arif's house... Daryl came quite early around 11.30am but he said Arif at Tesco with his mom shopping... so we had to wait... we had some cookies at his house and then we went to MP... had BK for lunch then we walk around... thought wanna catch a movie but Arif going back to KL soon... MP is having renovations... the floor are tile-less... and BUM city bankrupted... they having buy 1 free 1 outside of the original shop... later we went to jonker for cendol... nice~ but the weather was damn hot... after that we went back... time seems to fly when you are enjoying yourself...

Yesterday I format my lappie and installed Windows 7... the installation time is much faster then I expected,,, I think it finish within 30 minutes... it is so cool and faster then Vista... but had some trouble installing the drivers... all the other programs run smoothly in Win 7... loving it...

Now, the time are crawling...

curiosity kills

I've been disconnecting myself from the world lately... it's not that I din online or what... it's just that I'm lazy or no mood to on my msn or ym or whatever... I just played my games... watched my movies... checked mails and stuffs... being jobless is very 'fan'... cause when you have nothing to do... the mind will wander and it's seems like every day is a waste of time...

I have stopped applying for jobs (not that I really apply that much also)... it's been like 2 weeks I din receive any calls or interviews... maybe due to raya is just around the corner... sometimes thinking of it is very frustrating... looking at the titles and details doesnt interest me... I didnt know what or which to apply... I dont really know what I want to do... I did receive a call a few days ago (ok, I lied about din yet any calls earlier)... the person ask me to do tele-marketing... so I ask what they sell... and she said insurance... I sneered and she asked why I laugh... I said nothing and said I'm not interested... geesh, I felt a little bad afterward... but cant a guy choose what he want to work as? even if he doesnt know what he wnat to do...

Been having restless nights again (one of the reason I din online)... sometimes I woke up suddenly at night... but most of the time is I cant sleep till around 2/3am... I so wish the brain had a switch to turn it off...

Do you have the time when you have decided to do something or have your mind set about something... but curiosity just gets the best of you and you end up doing the opposite of what you intended... for example, "I will not buy that shirt that I saw the other day"... curiosity came and "it looks nice on me, I'll buy it"... well, you get the idea... I'm that kind of person where curiosity always gets the best of me... curiosity kills I tell you... not physically, but mentally... and I hate it... (another reason I din online)...

Life is like a puzzle... where from time to time you will find the pieces to join together to complete the big picture, which is LIFE... sometimes the pieces doesnt come together so you'll have holes here and there... so you have to search for the pieces and place it at the correct holes... but wouldnt it be great if the pieces would just fall into place?

Life...
what is it?

to me

hey, who are you? why are you in that sort of place,
hugging your knees and crying?
...you are the way I am sometimes
you're sad from being the only one left behind, aren't you?

frollicking with the wind and greenery
the earth is kind upon your bare feet
the endless sketched dream as it is...
...as it is not knowing that it would end someday

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

you can't believe in yourself...
who would believe in you?
it should be ok to have confidence... one more time, muster up courage

I don't doubt where this road is heading
I will get there someday, I go on believing so
There may be some days you want to give up
because it is a little too cold to walk barefooted...

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

continue to walk onward
- Ai Otsuka (Sabakan Version)
from Tokyo Friends

ココロがいたい。。。

Nutella cake

The Nutella filling suppose to be in the center... but after baking it sink down... still taste awesome... very easy to make too...

Ingredients:
- 250g butter/margerine
- 4 eggs
- 200g brown sugar
- 300g self-raising flour
- 5tbsp milk
- 6tbsp Nutella hazelnut filling
- Some hazelnuts for topping (I use almonds cause mom dont have)

Methods:
1. Beat the butter and sugar till smooth and fluffy.
2. Add in the eggs, milk and finally the flour. Beat till smooth and fluffy.
3. Grease a 22cm baking tray. Pour 2/3 of the mixure into the tray and smoothen it.
4. Scoop the Nutella and place at 6 points (1 at the center and 5 around).
5. Pour the rest of the mixture over and smoothen it. Put some crushed hazelnuts on top.
6. Bake at 180°C for 45-60 minutes.

Lama tak bake...

Triple 9

Today is an auspicious day as you can see people are getting married all around the world... well, to me it's just another day in my life... all the days are numbered... a boring day today... thought something might happened (since it's 090909) but nothing did... nothing to blog about... been staying at home waiting to rot... maybe soon... spider web are forming... neway, just wanna blog since it's such a 'special' day... sort of...

Boring~

Just another weekend

A week pass so fast... and sometimes I got lost track of the days... seems like this weekend is gonna be the same as any other day... been watching movies recently since had nothing to do... got it from my brother most of it... some I downloaded it myself... pass Monday went out with Yen cause she came back for the merdeka holiday... we went for lunch and shop a while only... she hurt her leg...

Neway, been having problem sleeping at night lately... it's hard for me to fall a sleep since I'm not tired or whatever... i went to bed around 12.30am to 1am everyday and I only fall asleep around 2am or so... sometimes I wonder why do people need to sleep... cause sleeping like a waste of time... I usually woke up around 11am in the morning... geesh...

See, that's the life of a jobless person... they have nothing to do whole day... I tried to find something to do everyday but I cant... all I could do is watch movies or play games... maybe read a book or two... sometimes I teman my mom watch her hokkien show... all the show so illogical and stupid wan... all this is to make my mind occupied... if not, it will start to wander on it's own... especially when I cant sleep... hate it... how to make it stop?

Confusion...

FRIENDS

Ai Otsuka - フレンズ (Furenzu)
We tried walking so far, walking holding nothing.
Even now, that day, having met you, is treasure.

I didn't want you to be able to see my profile hidden by the sunset.
Tiny tears came one by one and
Gently, I let go of your hand.

Surely, if we could have said good-bye,
Could we have forgotten more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
I'll be able to say "thank you"...

The laughing voice I hear from that picture has resonated such a long way.
My tears stood alone miserably, gutlessly and
I pretended to be a bad person on purpose.

Surely, if we could have said it like always,
Would we have been able to laugh more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
We can say it like always...

Surely, if we could have said "don't forget,"
Would we have been able to believe that?
I want to become just a little stronger
So that I can become calmer.

Surely, if we could have said good-bye,
Could we have forgotten more easily?
When we someday can meet again,
I'll be able to say "thank you"...

We tried walking so far, walking holding nothing.
Even now, that day, having met you, is treasure.

キミへ。。。
僕の気持ち。。。