Pangkor, from my viewfinder

Well, I actually do not know how to write this post... the trip was not as exciting as anticipated... so, we basically booked a tour bus from TPM to Lumut... it took around 4 hours to reach the Lumut jetty... then another 15 minutes or so to reach the island via ferry...

This is the small jetty at the island...

Some views from the jetty while waiting the shutter to transport us to the hotel...

This is the resort we are staying...

Snap a few photos while waiting to check in...

Our first lunch... a bit weird... it's like they put all the buffet dished in a nice and decorative plate and serve to us..

There are fruits too...

The first day was kinda 'not-that-fun' as it was a Friday.. there are a few issues happened and we need to support them... so my colleague have to turn on her laptop and do support... I helped her too cause it is related to me... while the others enjoying themselves...

Sometimes, while waiting for the user to reply us... I took some photos nearby... and spotted a peacock... but the feather was not that beautiful...

The peacock was trying to impress the lady peacock... but I think he failed...

Arounf 4pm, we have a team building activities.. there are some games and it was kinda fun... but the activities was kinda short... photos will be right up in another post as I do not took them..

Then we went back to get ready for dinner... the scenery there was not that breathtaking... to me, it felt normal... maybe Phuket have too big of an impression to us... and we have big anticipation on Pangkor... so it was kinda disappointing...

Dinner was at a open buffet style beside the beach with barbeque... food was ok...

The next day... after breakfast we have a island survivor game... we were split to 2 team... we helped the fishermen to catch some fish using the traditional fishing net way... it was kinda fun and when we caught some fish... the feeling was indescribable... then, we need to build a shelter, search for fruits, make a fire and cook the fish we caught... it was damn tiring... photos coming up soon...

After lunch and rest a while... we have a photo hunt activity... where we were shown some photos and we need to look around the resort and snap it... kinda boring and the weather was so hot... after that some of us decided to go to town to buy some local delicacies; ikan bilis... hahaha... we came back and have dinner beside the beach with this amazing sunset... mesmerizing indeed...

On the final day... we suppose to have a jungle tracking activities but it was cancelled because no one wanna go... so they change the activities to kayaking... it was fun and exciting... at first it was kinda difficult to kayak further as the wave is kinda big... but after you have pass the waves into the open sea... it is smooth sailing... I mean kayaking... had lunch then it's time to check out... and it's another 4 hours on the road... I slept the whole way...

As you could see... I did not take a lot of photos... maybe I was under the weather... and there is also not much interesting stuffs to snap...

Another day have passed...

Through the window

My feelings right now is exactly like the picture above... where you see out of the window, you could see the sun light far far away... but you could not see it clearly... there are trees in front blocking it... I feel lost right now... is like there is no one that understands me anymore... I think I have returned being my old self again... thinking and hiding my emotions and feelings to myself... keeping it in a dark place where no one knows... I feel like I could not trust anyone...

This blog used to be my happy place... where I wrote whatever that comes to mind... it doesn't matter whether anyone is reading it... at least I had a place to let it out... but now, I noticed that I have stopped blogging for about a month dy... it felt dead... like how I'm feeling now...

This past couple of months... works been piling up... stress had showed it's face... and my mind could not think properly sometimes... it feels like everything around me is a mess... my life is a mess... I needed a break... but team building wasn't as fun as anticipated... and was down with a fever and sore throat... being sick, the brain totally shut down... so I took it as a sign to take a break that I deserve... I decided to go back to the little town that I know... where the pace is slower... and the environment that I'm familiar with...

This couple of days... just siting at home doing nothing.. savour my mom's cooking and just relaxing... well, it have quite opened my mind a little... settling down and calming myself... which leads to this post... I told myself: "yes, life sucks, so suck it up"... but sometimes, it's eating me inside.. bit by bit... well, c'est la vie...

I might been a jerk this pass few months a couple of times... well, here I apologise... I'm not in my right mind... everyone have their ups and downs... it's just depends on how you manage and control it... I admit that I do not manage and control it properly.. I'm sorry...

Deep in thoughts...