it's been a while...
...since I have posted anything other than what's happening around me... it's been quite a bumpy ride for the pass few months or weeks... before and after the CNY... well, I have also been kinda busy with work too... there's been some changes in work and everyone need to step up... including me of course...
Blogging time have been lesser and lesser... since I've moved in with my brother... we cook almost everyday for dinner.. and also the weekends... every night after dinner is kinda late dy... and was tired to do anything... dont speak about blogging... switching on the lappie is also seldom.. and since the area we staying is a new area... there is no connections here... not even streamyx... so we have to settle for P1... and the connection sucks... sometimes can connect sometimes cant... slow as snail and they're calling themselves faster 4G network... geesh!! then, 2 days ago.. finally there is streamyx available... it saved my live... at least it is stable and I could surf and download... waiting for unifi...
Also, 2 days ago... heard about the massive earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan.. that is very devastating... reported to be the 5th largest quakes after 1900... and looking at the videos of the water gushing through the land and wash everything away... it was scary just to think of the possibilities that hit the people there... also reported to be more than 10000 people lost and killed... let us pray for them... is it the end of the world is near? 2012? is it true?
Looking at what is happening around... life is very short and fragile... a moment earlier you could be doing things you like... the next you might be caught in something totally different... communication among people... feelings among people... giving and receiving... blaming and forgiving... the nature of human kind... selfishness... no matter what the situations... people will only think of themselves... they always put themselves first... I wonder will there be a day where everyone understands each other? and world peace? that might be a stupid thought indeed...
As for me... I have been kinda to myself lately... thinking about unanswered questions... which are still unanswered... guessing and puzzling this and that... and things I've never said... where I kept in a black box... that leaks out once a while... things that I could not say... that I could only think and imagine... and wonder around an endless thought...
Have you ever been told something you said is inappropriate... then whenever someone else said the same thing you said... maybe a few days later or maybe even earlier... the person never been judge... have you ever feel like whatever you said is wrong... naiveness or straightness that you dont even know... have you ever felt left out? like a monster amongst giants...
People told me to be the bigger person... which I have always been... but I have my limits too... that sometimes I could not control it... even if I want to... there is just a rage in you that wanted to burst out... to tell them in their face... cause some people just think they are so big and great... and the world revolved around them...
Sometimes I just wondering... did I grow to be a better person? are my thinking right? am I doing the right thing? or am I just like everyone else? cause we are just human anyway...
Blogging time have been lesser and lesser... since I've moved in with my brother... we cook almost everyday for dinner.. and also the weekends... every night after dinner is kinda late dy... and was tired to do anything... dont speak about blogging... switching on the lappie is also seldom.. and since the area we staying is a new area... there is no connections here... not even streamyx... so we have to settle for P1... and the connection sucks... sometimes can connect sometimes cant... slow as snail and they're calling themselves faster 4G network... geesh!! then, 2 days ago.. finally there is streamyx available... it saved my live... at least it is stable and I could surf and download... waiting for unifi...
Also, 2 days ago... heard about the massive earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan.. that is very devastating... reported to be the 5th largest quakes after 1900... and looking at the videos of the water gushing through the land and wash everything away... it was scary just to think of the possibilities that hit the people there... also reported to be more than 10000 people lost and killed... let us pray for them... is it the end of the world is near? 2012? is it true?
Looking at what is happening around... life is very short and fragile... a moment earlier you could be doing things you like... the next you might be caught in something totally different... communication among people... feelings among people... giving and receiving... blaming and forgiving... the nature of human kind... selfishness... no matter what the situations... people will only think of themselves... they always put themselves first... I wonder will there be a day where everyone understands each other? and world peace? that might be a stupid thought indeed...
As for me... I have been kinda to myself lately... thinking about unanswered questions... which are still unanswered... guessing and puzzling this and that... and things I've never said... where I kept in a black box... that leaks out once a while... things that I could not say... that I could only think and imagine... and wonder around an endless thought...
Have you ever been told something you said is inappropriate... then whenever someone else said the same thing you said... maybe a few days later or maybe even earlier... the person never been judge... have you ever feel like whatever you said is wrong... naiveness or straightness that you dont even know... have you ever felt left out? like a monster amongst giants...
People told me to be the bigger person... which I have always been... but I have my limits too... that sometimes I could not control it... even if I want to... there is just a rage in you that wanted to burst out... to tell them in their face... cause some people just think they are so big and great... and the world revolved around them...
Sometimes I just wondering... did I grow to be a better person? are my thinking right? am I doing the right thing? or am I just like everyone else? cause we are just human anyway...
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