Flip Flop

It's Friday...
feeling lazy...

What to do?

A cup a day...

...seems like impossible due to the high price... but once a while would be great... or maybe some cheap coffee... but it dont taste as great... addicted to coffee...

Blogging at Station 1...

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A little messange could make a big difference...

キミの声が聞こえます。。。

my world

If my world has no paths,
will you build some roads?

If my world is freezing,
will you be the sun?

If my world has no love,
will you show some?

If my world are being invaded,
will you defend it?

If my world is the only world,
will you make another beside?

If my world become a shade of gray,
will you paint it with colours?

If my world become pitch black,
will you become the light that shine?

逢いたい。。。
キミはどこ？

It kicked in

It's been 2 weeks since I started working and everything seems to be ok for me... well, I had a few task to do like checking or doing reports... all the titsy-bitsy stuffs... but this week the tasks are a little more harder... I had to do some queries, check this and that whether it's correct or not and some other almost similar stuffs... the environment here is ok... but have to pay parking of 3 bucks per day... and have to walk a little distance... oh, everyday dring lunch time around 12 or so, we have free fruits... usually it's in a box... that day we have kiwis, yesterday we had guava, and today we have pruns... but normally when I went to the pantry it only left a few not so pretty ones... but still better than nothing... sometimes, there's nothing left...

It's the time of the month dy... I hate it cause it's too much to think... not that I want to think but whenever you're alone, the mind wanders... too much stuffs, too much memories... everything I do seems to be wrong... I hate people telling me to think positive or some inspiring stories or whatever craps... you see, inspiration stories are normally from who? the rich and famous isnt it... they're rich, it's a different story for us... some say they live a hard life when they're young... and because they're hardworking, they achieve what they have now, or some sort like that... if you see out there, how many people do not try? how many do not take chances?

Everyone does... but luck just not by their side... LUCK? hmm... some people will tell you to see other people's suffering or bad luck... so you'll feel better for yourself... but given the condition of the people and yours, it's totally different... how could you compare? cause the world is an unfair place... some people are meant to be rich and some people are meant to be poor... some people are meant to be happy and some people are meant to suffer... people will only think for themselves... everyone is a selfish jerk, cause we're humans, so am I...

Thinking positive does help sometimes... but only for that moment... if you kept all the feeling inside you for days, months or years... you're eventually going to explode some day... or go crazy... or you might even take you own life... what is the best way then? or are there even one to start with? what is this so called LIFE? what is the purpose of living? do we have control on our life? on what we do? on ourselves? who are us? who are you? WHO AM I?

TEARS...
SCARS...
BLEEDING...

unfair world

This world is so unfair... some people just got the luck or whatever you call that... everything is smooth sailing for them... got into a good school, got the dream job, get rich, etc... but some people are just bad luck their whole life... life doesnt really go their way... not even once... whatever they go it always go the wrong way... an opportunity turn out to be a garbage... a dream turn out to be a nightmare...

This world is full with idiots, bastards, bitch, whore, fools, nincompoop, freaks, jerks, double face, hypocrite and all the other bad words you could think of... they are all selfish that only think for themselves... they dont care for any other being, animals and plants included... they live in their own world where they are the king and rules... they look down on other as though others are abnormal or aliens...

Everyone is a fool...

Here I am...

...in Puchong starting my so called working life... yeap, I had started my first day today and it was boring... i woke up quite early today to make sure I wont be late for my first day... I ended reaching at around 8am... the company starts work at 8.30am... but when I'm there, most of the people already there... some just arrived, some having their breakfast... I was to fill in more forms for the company... after that I was shown to my seat and introduced to everyone... well, I cant remember their names... not even one...

Ironically, I met a friend there working in the same department as I am... she started 1 month earlier than me cause she had some help from her friend working there... I know her from the SAP training that I took earlier before convocation... I didnt really know each other or talk to each other before... the only time we talk is on the last day of the training... so since she started earlier, she was asked to teach me some stuffs... but all I do is observe and try to remember as much as possible... it's quite confusing some of it...

While she was busy with her work loads, I spend my time flipping through a MS SQL Server book... I did learn SQL before but not MS SQL... but it's almost similar with some different syntax... well, I spend all day doing nothing... till after lunch, she asked me to check and compare some stuffs... some simple SQL query to check whether the data is correct... it's so boring and I almost felt asleep a few times reading flipping the book... around 5.35pm, I go back... cause they say when you could go early the fist few weeks, you better do so...

Tired...

Sunrise/Sunset

I'm currently in Puchong now... will be staying here in my friend house for the time being... I'll pay rent of course... there's an empty room... I'm gonna start working starting this coming Monday... there's a little anticipation in me and a little nervous too... for the pass couple of months, my life been almost the same everyday... sunrise and sunset, if you get what I mean... is not that after Monday the sun wont rise and set... what I mean is that I woke up (normally way after sunrise) and idle around... then have lunch a while after that and I'll be either playing games, watching dramas, etc... soon it'll be dinner time and sleep...

Yesterday has been kinda hectic... I came up to KL in the morning and look for brother... then we went for lunch nearby and he fetch me to do the medical checkup... they check everything including urine... but no blood test though... then they asked mt to do x-ray at another clinic not far away... that time it's pouring cats and dogs... by the time I done all those, it's around 4.30pm dy... so went back to my brother place to rest...

Around 6pm, I took off to Puchong cause my friend would be reaching home around 7pm or so... the whole way from TTDI to Sunway tol is crawling with cars... I was stuck in the jam for about 1 and the half hours... by the time I reach his house, he also just came back... so he help me carry my stuffs and we cleaned the room... the room is so dusty and the toilet is so dirty... the room I'm staying now is just temparary cause it's too big, it's the master room... another housemate of his will change room with me soon... that room is smaller and cheaper of course...

By the time we done cleaning, his friend also came back... so we went for dinner at IOI Mall... his friend said wanna had TGIF cause is my friend's birthday (actually it's today)... so I mah follow lo... haih~ pokai liao... but the one that I ordered tasted awesome... Dragonfire Chicken if not mistaken... sourly and spicy...

Today, went for an interview 8am in the morning... geesh, the interview was ok, but they're finding for programmer (if you know Java and/or .NET, contact me)... they even provide breakfast... thank god, I'm starving... there's a;so lunch, but I finish all my part before that, so I went back... tapau-ed on the way... had a nap after lunch... in the evening went out to buy some stuff... there's nothing here, seriously... and something bad happened... so sueh, dowan to talk about it...

At night, a friend come and find me for dinner... he stay nearby too... so we went to the stalls nearby and catch up on what we missed... it's nice to hear people telling you other people misses you too... I miss them too and wish I could meet them and hang out or whatever... maybe they'll do a gathering or such...



A little sleepy, it's been quite a day (or 2)... typing off...

GASHI-GASHI!!!

Mirrors

Humans are like mirrors... how you treat someone, it will be reflected to the person... and the person will treat you the same way... but in reality, it doesnt seems so... half of the time people are not like what we think... cause mirrors do break sometimes...

Have mine broken?

Roses...

...usually mean passions... but there's another meaning that is not so well known... that is "let's forget everything"... in any relationship, no matter how long or short it is.. there is always happiness and sadness... and someone or two will get hurt in the process... no matter how hurt you get, thinking of the happiness you had... it is better to let everything go... too much dramas :D...

Anyway, I got a job dy... and they pay quite reasonable... hopefully it's enough for me... last Tuesday went TPM for an interview... and got back the next day... and that afternoon, they called and offer me a position and wanted me to start on the 12th... then on the next day, another company called and ask to attend an interview on the 10th... and they pay more... hahaha... both are great companies and it's a dilemma... but I guess I'll go for the interview to see what they have to offer and still go to work on the 12th... but the interview is 8am, and Saturday some more... gashi-gashi!!! (stomping the foot once)

Well, other than that, went to a wedding yesterday... a cousin got married... and next Sunday, another cousin's getting married too... geesh, so many weddings... weddings are bored... they asked to come at 7pm sharp but they start at 8pm... then some uncles aunties will sing karaoke... then on the 4th dish, the MC will go on stage and make fun of the bride and groom... then everyone cheered... and we continue to eat... sometimes it took hours till about 11pm... but yesterday's wedding ended around 10pm which is okay... and it's the first time they served 2 fishes on a plate... maybe due to the fishes are smaller than usual's...

Haih~ this week seems like it's going to be a hectic one... cause I have like tonnes of things to do... go and meet my friend/landlord for the house I'm gonna be staying... go for a medical check up the company asked at PJ... prepare documents for the interview and also the company... packing my stuffs... and other timid things, if they exist... should be going up on Thursday... anyone wanna meet? hehe... or before I go up also can...

Working life... finally huh?

会いたいな、キミ。。。