Nobody

Sometimes it feel like...
whatever you say, it's wrong...
whatever you do, no one cares...
whatever you think, it doesnt matter...
whatever ideas you had, it's unacceptable...
however you act, you are not respected...

What should you do?

Situasi

Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu
Dan aku, ku layu
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...

Kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
Menempuh hidup yang ku temui
Dan aku, ku tunggu... oh oh oh
Disitu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
Itulah impian aku

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
Tuk menggapai bintang
Terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
Engkaulah, destinasiku
Dalam ingatanku... oh oh oh...
-Bunkface

Aku tak paham kenapa...

Coincidence

Yesterday after work around 7pm, I called a friend of my which had been a long time since I last saw him... although he stayed quite near around here... wanted to ask him to meet for dinner but then he ask me to join their little gang for a friend, which I knew, birthday celebration... all of us went for the 1 month training together... it's been a long time since I met them... so I agreed... went with a little anticipation...

So we all met up at a place called Nyonya Mansion or Paradise or whatever it's called, forget dy... it's located at Bandar Puteri, opposite Giant there... and it's just opposite Easy Pha-Max... the place has quite a nice atmosphere, has 2 storeys and all... nyonya restaurant, so we thought it wont be that bad la... when the menu came, nice booklet with colours and all... but when flip through, disappointment... I could not find any rendang or ponteh or 'zhap chai' anywhere... instead, they served nasi lemak, clay pot rice and even chicken chop... jeez! nyonya kononnya... fail!!!

Neway, the place is still ok la... so we ate and talk and took photos... feels like a small gathering... one a while meeting friends you long time din see is nice...

My life need to be more happening...

cup-of-cino

Hasnt been updating for quite a while now... actually, there is nothing for me to write... work load been piling up like mountain... but last Friday and today I manage to finish off most of my task... feel proud of myself... hehehe... most of the task been pending for a few days dy... it's kinda hectic for a new year start... time fly so fast that I didnt even notice...

Last weekend went back to Melaka... it's seems like a long time since I've been back... nothing much change thought... and my dog still obese... hahaha... went out for Avatar on Saturday... it's been showing for quite a time dy I know... wanted to watch the 3D one but was full... only left those sits in front... so we watch the mornal one... it is nice, the graphics and all... the story line too... a friend was saying it was totally Pocahontas... well, thinking about it... it's similar except that it's other world/planet...

CNY is just arounf the corner... jeez! time do fly by unnoticeably...

Need a good cup of coffee...
starbuck anyone?

SIGN

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead, with this scar

Go ahead and forget, go ahead and stop feeling
I covered up my wounded heart

It's fine if I get hurt, cause I don't feel pain anymore
Even while dragging those feet along

I lost sight of myself
the sound rose and fell
Before I knew it, it was just the sound of the wind...

That comes to tell me, follow the scar
Before you're crushed by the world
Do you remember? The teary sky

That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you

More than a strength that doesn't cause wounds, a kindness that can't wound
Some part of that voice seems sad

Like undoing buttons, heart and body separated
take grasp of your heart one more time

I've found it, that crying voice
No doubt, that's right, it was my own
All of it was for this moment...

I'm sure from the beginning, I always knew
That I wouldn't ever let go of myself again
You noticed, a SIGN to you
That pain protected you

I've come to tell you, follow the scar
If you do, there's nothing more to fear...
Don't forget okay? The reason for smiling

That pain protected you
That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you
-FLOW (Naruto Shippuuden beginning song)

今の気持ち。。。
嫌い。。。嫌いよ。。。

2010

It's already 3 days pass in the new year... time seems to fly so quickly... this was a delayed post, suppose to write on the last day of 2009... but I was kinda busy with something on hand... and my parent came down...

Neway, everytime when it's the end of a year, people will write about what they had done for that year or their new year resolution for the coming year... I wonder how do they even remember what they have done for one whole year... maybe they wrote it down or view back their previous post (that would be a lot) or they really have a very good memory...

As for me, I cant remember what I had done for the whole year... only the big stuff that happened recently... for one, I had obtained my degree, I had graduated... that's kinda huge right... beside that, I had my first job and had my first salary... all this things normally come together one after another... that is my biggest... erm, could consider as achievements so far... other than that, I had Si Gemuk, my car... yeap, I had car of my own dy... a black Myvi and loving it... I called it Si Gemuk cause Myvi are a little wider than normal cars and it's shorter... so I have a burden responsibility now... other than work la...

All those are the big stuff that happened, that had the biggest impact on my life... I could not think of other achievements... seriously, blank... hmm... I had my first team building... does that consider? I played my first badminton game again after a long time of recovery from my dislocated shoulder... felt a little sore after that... bought a DS Lite... bought a 1TB HDD... ok, that's enough of the small stuff...

Really have no idea where this post is heading... hopefully this year's achievements will be bigger and life changing... cause this year is the Tiger year in Chinese calender... the year I was born in... hope it will be a blast...

Happy new year...
a belated one...