unsettled~

Been thinking a lot lately... erm... since da beginning of da sem i guess... been worrying ab dis n tat... worrying over thgs tat seem 2 b worthless.... mayb i worry 2 much.... tried 2 relax myself sumtimes... but it seems 2 b pointless... cant hav a proper sleep av nite.... go 2 bed at 12 o 1.... but oni fell asleep at 2+ o 3+.... den sumtimes woke up in da middle of da nite.... well, i sud say early morning.... dono wad time izzit oso.... den sleep again... sumtime woke up 2 o 3 times.... each time woke up.... my heart will beat very fast n sweat all over... as tho terkejut o da feeling of u r late 4 sumthg.... o... u get my point... n morning woke up at 10 o 11 lidet... seems like i slept more den 8 hrs rite... minus all da thgs tat happen... actually i slept less den tat... sumtimes i ask myself... wad m i worrying ab.... well, even i cant ans tat ques... wad i m thinking? wad i wan? wad i wanna do? wad izzit wif me?.... sum1 pls giv me an ans.... wish i cud rite ab my prob here.... but i cant... don ask me y tho.... embarassing? mayb... o mayb i hav da feeling of being stupid.... wadever tat means... n if i rite it all here.... will any1 read it?.... coz dis blog is full of 'webs' n 'dust'.... it feels like i m da oni 1 tat read wad i rite here.... doesnt it sound stupid?... i rite, i post, n i read myself.... wadever.... n if i rote sumthg sensitive how?.... dis fellow will b sad.... tat fellow will b hurt... etc.... jealousy, hate, trust, admire, avthg will happen.... wad i m riting dis post anyway.... wadever, juz post it.... ohya... da weather damn hot!!!