Merdeka

Today is Malaysia 49th independent day.... happy bday Malaysia... yest nite got celebration at MITC... tats wads my dad say la... but din go... if wanna go oso no1 teman... so go 4 wad... 2day hav no plan oso... stay at home lo... wad merdeka means? i oso dono.... hahaha... 2 me, merdeka mean a day break from stress... hahaha... no la... actually merdeka means freedom... ya, tats da best word 2 discribe la... n tats tat...

From da previous previous previous post... stated tat i m bz wif midterm... but 2 b honest... midterm is not da oni stuff tats in my mind... a lot of stuff hav happen since da beginning of da sem... o mayb b4 da sem started... n mayb last sem... been wanting 2 post ab it long long time ago... but do not hav da guts... hahaha... no la... i dunno wether i sud post it o not... n till now... its independence day... i decided 2 post it...

Ppl say tat i changed a lot... i m diff from wen i m in alpha... tats wad they say... 2 me, they change 2... o izzit tat they r da 1 tats changed, not me... well, ppl change isnt it... usually ppl will change 2 b a better person... hav i? mayb, n mayb not... even i cant ans tat ques... o mayb u cud ans it 4 me... i feel like i m out of da circle dy... da bonding is getting looser n looser... n within sec, it'll break... but oni time will tell... many times i hav tried 2 'save' it... try 2 make it better... try 2 'glued' da bonding 2gether.... but da reaction i get is far beyond which is expected.... n sumtime doesnt even near 2 wad is expected....

Izzit me who hav changed again o izzit them tat hav changed... 2 me i feel tat they r da 1 who is changing... especially a particular fellow tat changed a lot... as tho becoming another person... i won say who izzit... mayb its bcoz of da stress tat is building up on av1 of us... coz dis sem is so stressful... n moz of da subs is killer subs... tats wad i kept telling myself... n mayb i m 2 sensitive... tats da oni solution i gav myself...

Da prob is not oni here... but from my other frens oso... but da prob is not very serious... i think av1 will go thru sumthg similiar like dis... but recently i've got contact wif my old old skul mates again... its been so many yrs dy... mayb dis is like wad ppl say; giving up sumthg means recieving in another way... altho i din rili gav up my frens... but i juz accept it as it is... coz ntg i done hav any changes...

Frens com n frens leave... oni tru frens leaves footprints behind... well, its tru... frens will b frens... no matter how long u din c o tok 2 each other... n no matter how long u noe each other... they written a page in u... as long as u r happy... juz leave ur life... don let a tiny little thg distroy ur day... but speaking is easier den doing... so juz try ur best... avthg will work out at da end... cheers...

~Bobo~

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Haih~

Haih~ din get enuf of sleep dis fews day... coz 3 exams all in a row... so avday been studying till very late at nite... n hav 2 wake up early 2 go 2 class... altho class at 12pm but wake up at 10... seems 2 hrs like a lot of time... but after i prepare my stuff... time juz flew by... in class very blur n din listen 2 wad da lecturer is toking oso... coz i was dreaming... hehehe...

On thur.... wake up n drank a cup of milk.... later wen 2 tut class at 12-1pm... wen 2 PS 2 hav lunch wif frens.... hav da same mee goreng as L... den da nex class start at 2pm... at 1st avthg was ok.... but till around 3+pm... i started feeling not well... headache n stomach feel very gassy... hop u get wad i mean... so decided 2 skip da other class n wen home 2 rest... n a gud decision it was... driving on da way feel more n more headache n stomach like wanna blow.... juz b4 da turn 2 my house... i vomitted in da car... all over my shirt n jeans.... it came so sudden... but oni a little... less den 5 mins reach home... so quickly cleanup... den wen i was juz sitting in my sofa.... i vomitted again... rush 2 da bath room... 1 whole plate of noodle came out... yucks isnt it... vomit till kaki lemah n no energy 2 do anythg... n thinking of da exam tat nite... make my heart sink... dono izzit da milk i drink o da mee goreng... eat 2 panadols n sleep... no more energy.... wake up wen my mom reach home from work... feel much better tat time dy... no more vomitting... with no choice n time left... quickly study 4 electromagnetic... dinner hav fish porridge... coz my mom say cant eat oily food... wen in da exam hall... headache again... formula all blur... EMG is doom...

Wen home still headache from juz now... on9 cek sum stuff n wen str8 2 bed... fri wake up feel head very heavy... skip 2 more class... stay at home study engin maths 4 tat nite exam... 1 whole day terperuk in my room... engin maths sux... integration more sux... try 2 comfort myself by saying tat its oni 20 obj ques... no need worry much... so at nite wen 2 test.... feel muach better dy... so wen in n look at da ques.... avthg is integration.... but luckily i can do moz of da ques... sum dono do so tikam... haih~

After da paper rush home 2 piah 4 2day circuit n signal.... hav 2 piah coz 2day start at 3pm but not at nite... so yest din sleep enuf oso... 2day wake up at 10am 2 cont piah.... piah ar piah till 1+pm... den wen 2 campus.... eik, 2day sat... y 1 way oso wan.... oww, president punya anak kahwin... shrugs.... reach quite early... look at my own summary... den wen in... wow... ques looks ok 2 me... but i think i do wrong dy... haih~

So tiring la.... so many papers at once but so little time... actually got i week holiday 2 prepare wan... but holiday wo... haih~ padan muka la.... so i think i'll fail dis 3 paper dy... nvm la... smile~ hahaha.... still got final mah.... hohoho.... piah final... T_T.... speech is easier den action... die lo... *praying* looking at da academic calender... there's still 5 more weeks b4 da finals.... but on da 1st week of finals... 2 of my cousins n 1 primary fren of mine r getting married... ya, PRIMARY mate.... same age as me... getting married... n i still at mmu... perah-ing my little otak.... haih~

Monday da 21th

Hmm... on sunday nite, wen 2 bed at 12.30+am... means monday morning dy la... den cant sleep till 1am, n my fren called... owh, long time din hear from him dy... hahaha... he's now at sabah studying... i was so bz tat i forgotten 2 call him n tell him tat my break is over... coz i promise tat b4 i start skul again i'll call him... but after a week dy i hav forgotten ab it... he call me tat time i was kinda sleepy dy... but we still crape 4 almoz half an hour... wahahaha... was happy la... coz at least sum1 still remembers me... hehhe... tok as tho ppl hav forgotten me lidet...

Den yest wake up at 7am... feel so tired n dowan 2 wake up... but is engin maths class... so terpaksa wake up oso la... imp sub... was sleepy in class... n is a new lecturer take over da last chap... actually he's my tutor... well, he teach is gud la... he like 2 tok... hahha... explanation is very clear... for now la... hahaha.... altho he teach from da lecturer notes but i understand... so thumbs up...

After class wen home 2 sleep again... but feel restless... cant rili get 2 sleep... wake up at 12.30pm n hav lunch... my dad ta pao... kemas awhile n read da lab sheet... coz i hav lab later... like shit oni la da lab... reach there almoz 2pm dy... n wen going in da lab i juz notice tat i wear da wrong shoe... i hav worn sandals rather den sports shoe... so was kinda worried tat i'll get halau... so quickly take my stuff n wen 2 da table n hide my leg under da desk... i sat wif T n he noe tat 2... so juz keep quiet oni la... wen doing da experiment... its programming actually... i feel like an idiot oni... sit there doing ntg... all da stuff is done by T... i feel so useless... juz pretend tat i understand.... but actually i don.... not all la, mozly... feel like no diff... so T do avthg n he was so frust tat he din get a part... n all i do is juz sitting there... so sorry ya... haih~ spend 3 hrs in grief... not oni bcoz of my shoe but oso i m useless... i juz sitting there n try not 2 disturb him wen he is thinking...

After lab wen hom... but b4 tat hav 2 fetch my aunt... she live at BB oso... wen 2 fetch her n wen home... reach home almoz 5.40pm dy... bath n get ready 2 go 2 merlimau 2 pray... ghost month mah... usually we pray at da end of da month wan... n other places siang siang pray dy... reach there around 7+pm... n ppl oledy started dy... put all da food n wen 2 my another aunt house which is there... da tables avthg is at da pasar there... so avtime we call it sembahyang pasar... hahaha... wen 2 her house n hav sum porridge... den wen out 2 c da show... actually is kara-ok... sum ppl singing... tats all... bored... but is very loud la... ppl say wen praying dis, da louder da better... so tat all da spirits will com... i think is lidet la... hahaha...

Wen i was standing n waiting 4 da show 2 start... meet my old primary classmate... wahh... long time din c her dy... ya, is a her... we use 2 play 2gether wif another boy summor wen we was in primary skul... ahh, da gud old primary skul memories... moz of my primary skul mate hav lost contact wif me... but meeting her get a lot of updates from her... coz after primary i pindah 2 melaka... but moz of my skul mates study 2gether summor 4 2ndary... so we xchange hp no. n hopfully will get 2 meet more of my old mates from her la... according 2 her... mozly all at kl dy... she say mayb will make a gathering dis year o mayb chinese new year... coz tat is da time wen av1 will com bek... so looking 4ward 2 it...

After da praying is over n all da 'papers' burned... its a very big flame... sum of da 'papers' flew very high... da higher da better... tats wad ppl say 2... but dis i dono y... take all da food n balik... reach home almoz 12 dy... so kemas 4 2day n tido...

So, basically yest was quite a happy day 4 me la... minus da lab... n i did bring my notes wif me yest nite... but meeting my old fren makes me forget ab it... hahaha... we actually tok 4 around 3 hrs... wahh... standing there n chat all da time... stand till kaki sakit.... but i enjoyed da moment chatting wif her...coz it brings bek memories... n get 2 noe wad da others is doing... din c her since form 1... well, moz of my old mates i din c since form 1... hahah...