Merdeka

Today is Malaysia 49th independent day.... happy bday Malaysia... yest nite got celebration at MITC... tats wads my dad say la... but din go... if wanna go oso no1 teman... so go 4 wad... 2day hav no plan oso... stay at home lo... wad merdeka means? i oso dono.... hahaha... 2 me, merdeka mean a day break from stress... hahaha... no la... actually merdeka means freedom... ya, tats da best word 2 discribe la... n tats tat...

From da previous previous previous post... stated tat i m bz wif midterm... but 2 b honest... midterm is not da oni stuff tats in my mind... a lot of stuff hav happen since da beginning of da sem... o mayb b4 da sem started... n mayb last sem... been wanting 2 post ab it long long time ago... but do not hav da guts... hahaha... no la... i dunno wether i sud post it o not... n till now... its independence day... i decided 2 post it...

Ppl say tat i changed a lot... i m diff from wen i m in alpha... tats wad they say... 2 me, they change 2... o izzit tat they r da 1 tats changed, not me... well, ppl change isnt it... usually ppl will change 2 b a better person... hav i? mayb, n mayb not... even i cant ans tat ques... o mayb u cud ans it 4 me... i feel like i m out of da circle dy... da bonding is getting looser n looser... n within sec, it'll break... but oni time will tell... many times i hav tried 2 'save' it... try 2 make it better... try 2 'glued' da bonding 2gether.... but da reaction i get is far beyond which is expected.... n sumtime doesnt even near 2 wad is expected....

Izzit me who hav changed again o izzit them tat hav changed... 2 me i feel tat they r da 1 who is changing... especially a particular fellow tat changed a lot... as tho becoming another person... i won say who izzit... mayb its bcoz of da stress tat is building up on av1 of us... coz dis sem is so stressful... n moz of da subs is killer subs... tats wad i kept telling myself... n mayb i m 2 sensitive... tats da oni solution i gav myself...

Da prob is not oni here... but from my other frens oso... but da prob is not very serious... i think av1 will go thru sumthg similiar like dis... but recently i've got contact wif my old old skul mates again... its been so many yrs dy... mayb dis is like wad ppl say; giving up sumthg means recieving in another way... altho i din rili gav up my frens... but i juz accept it as it is... coz ntg i done hav any changes...

Frens com n frens leave... oni tru frens leaves footprints behind... well, its tru... frens will b frens... no matter how long u din c o tok 2 each other... n no matter how long u noe each other... they written a page in u... as long as u r happy... juz leave ur life... don let a tiny little thg distroy ur day... but speaking is easier den doing... so juz try ur best... avthg will work out at da end... cheers...

~Bobo~

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Haih~

Haih~ din get enuf of sleep dis fews day... coz 3 exams all in a row... so avday been studying till very late at nite... n hav 2 wake up early 2 go 2 class... altho class at 12pm but wake up at 10... seems 2 hrs like a lot of time... but after i prepare my stuff... time juz flew by... in class very blur n din listen 2 wad da lecturer is toking oso... coz i was dreaming... hehehe...

On thur.... wake up n drank a cup of milk.... later wen 2 tut class at 12-1pm... wen 2 PS 2 hav lunch wif frens.... hav da same mee goreng as L... den da nex class start at 2pm... at 1st avthg was ok.... but till around 3+pm... i started feeling not well... headache n stomach feel very gassy... hop u get wad i mean... so decided 2 skip da other class n wen home 2 rest... n a gud decision it was... driving on da way feel more n more headache n stomach like wanna blow.... juz b4 da turn 2 my house... i vomitted in da car... all over my shirt n jeans.... it came so sudden... but oni a little... less den 5 mins reach home... so quickly cleanup... den wen i was juz sitting in my sofa.... i vomitted again... rush 2 da bath room... 1 whole plate of noodle came out... yucks isnt it... vomit till kaki lemah n no energy 2 do anythg... n thinking of da exam tat nite... make my heart sink... dono izzit da milk i drink o da mee goreng... eat 2 panadols n sleep... no more energy.... wake up wen my mom reach home from work... feel much better tat time dy... no more vomitting... with no choice n time left... quickly study 4 electromagnetic... dinner hav fish porridge... coz my mom say cant eat oily food... wen in da exam hall... headache again... formula all blur... EMG is doom...

Wen home still headache from juz now... on9 cek sum stuff n wen str8 2 bed... fri wake up feel head very heavy... skip 2 more class... stay at home study engin maths 4 tat nite exam... 1 whole day terperuk in my room... engin maths sux... integration more sux... try 2 comfort myself by saying tat its oni 20 obj ques... no need worry much... so at nite wen 2 test.... feel muach better dy... so wen in n look at da ques.... avthg is integration.... but luckily i can do moz of da ques... sum dono do so tikam... haih~

After da paper rush home 2 piah 4 2day circuit n signal.... hav 2 piah coz 2day start at 3pm but not at nite... so yest din sleep enuf oso... 2day wake up at 10am 2 cont piah.... piah ar piah till 1+pm... den wen 2 campus.... eik, 2day sat... y 1 way oso wan.... oww, president punya anak kahwin... shrugs.... reach quite early... look at my own summary... den wen in... wow... ques looks ok 2 me... but i think i do wrong dy... haih~

So tiring la.... so many papers at once but so little time... actually got i week holiday 2 prepare wan... but holiday wo... haih~ padan muka la.... so i think i'll fail dis 3 paper dy... nvm la... smile~ hahaha.... still got final mah.... hohoho.... piah final... T_T.... speech is easier den action... die lo... *praying* looking at da academic calender... there's still 5 more weeks b4 da finals.... but on da 1st week of finals... 2 of my cousins n 1 primary fren of mine r getting married... ya, PRIMARY mate.... same age as me... getting married... n i still at mmu... perah-ing my little otak.... haih~

Monday da 21th

Hmm... on sunday nite, wen 2 bed at 12.30+am... means monday morning dy la... den cant sleep till 1am, n my fren called... owh, long time din hear from him dy... hahaha... he's now at sabah studying... i was so bz tat i forgotten 2 call him n tell him tat my break is over... coz i promise tat b4 i start skul again i'll call him... but after a week dy i hav forgotten ab it... he call me tat time i was kinda sleepy dy... but we still crape 4 almoz half an hour... wahahaha... was happy la... coz at least sum1 still remembers me... hehhe... tok as tho ppl hav forgotten me lidet...

Den yest wake up at 7am... feel so tired n dowan 2 wake up... but is engin maths class... so terpaksa wake up oso la... imp sub... was sleepy in class... n is a new lecturer take over da last chap... actually he's my tutor... well, he teach is gud la... he like 2 tok... hahha... explanation is very clear... for now la... hahaha.... altho he teach from da lecturer notes but i understand... so thumbs up...

After class wen home 2 sleep again... but feel restless... cant rili get 2 sleep... wake up at 12.30pm n hav lunch... my dad ta pao... kemas awhile n read da lab sheet... coz i hav lab later... like shit oni la da lab... reach there almoz 2pm dy... n wen going in da lab i juz notice tat i wear da wrong shoe... i hav worn sandals rather den sports shoe... so was kinda worried tat i'll get halau... so quickly take my stuff n wen 2 da table n hide my leg under da desk... i sat wif T n he noe tat 2... so juz keep quiet oni la... wen doing da experiment... its programming actually... i feel like an idiot oni... sit there doing ntg... all da stuff is done by T... i feel so useless... juz pretend tat i understand.... but actually i don.... not all la, mozly... feel like no diff... so T do avthg n he was so frust tat he din get a part... n all i do is juz sitting there... so sorry ya... haih~ spend 3 hrs in grief... not oni bcoz of my shoe but oso i m useless... i juz sitting there n try not 2 disturb him wen he is thinking...

After lab wen hom... but b4 tat hav 2 fetch my aunt... she live at BB oso... wen 2 fetch her n wen home... reach home almoz 5.40pm dy... bath n get ready 2 go 2 merlimau 2 pray... ghost month mah... usually we pray at da end of da month wan... n other places siang siang pray dy... reach there around 7+pm... n ppl oledy started dy... put all da food n wen 2 my another aunt house which is there... da tables avthg is at da pasar there... so avtime we call it sembahyang pasar... hahaha... wen 2 her house n hav sum porridge... den wen out 2 c da show... actually is kara-ok... sum ppl singing... tats all... bored... but is very loud la... ppl say wen praying dis, da louder da better... so tat all da spirits will com... i think is lidet la... hahaha...

Wen i was standing n waiting 4 da show 2 start... meet my old primary classmate... wahh... long time din c her dy... ya, is a her... we use 2 play 2gether wif another boy summor wen we was in primary skul... ahh, da gud old primary skul memories... moz of my primary skul mate hav lost contact wif me... but meeting her get a lot of updates from her... coz after primary i pindah 2 melaka... but moz of my skul mates study 2gether summor 4 2ndary... so we xchange hp no. n hopfully will get 2 meet more of my old mates from her la... according 2 her... mozly all at kl dy... she say mayb will make a gathering dis year o mayb chinese new year... coz tat is da time wen av1 will com bek... so looking 4ward 2 it...

After da praying is over n all da 'papers' burned... its a very big flame... sum of da 'papers' flew very high... da higher da better... tats wad ppl say 2... but dis i dono y... take all da food n balik... reach home almoz 12 dy... so kemas 4 2day n tido...

So, basically yest was quite a happy day 4 me la... minus da lab... n i did bring my notes wif me yest nite... but meeting my old fren makes me forget ab it... hahaha... we actually tok 4 around 3 hrs... wahh... standing there n chat all da time... stand till kaki sakit.... but i enjoyed da moment chatting wif her...coz it brings bek memories... n get 2 noe wad da others is doing... din c her since form 1... well, moz of my old mates i din c since form 1... hahah...

rescue me...

Aiyo... die lo... dis week 3 test in a row... haven finish study oso... nono... finish is a huge word... let me rephrase... haven understand da chap oso... how 2 exam o... i juz read thru 3 out of 6 chap... 1 chap short from wad i hav planned... how ler... cant finish le... n still i m riting dis post... hahaha... coz cant concentrate dy... starting 2 blur out n pening... haih~ 2molo 8am class summor... den i got lab summor in da evening.... den later at nite going 2 merlimau 2 pray.... its da month of da ghost... com bek sure midnite dy wan... T_T but i will bring notes there 2 study at my aunt house la... but thinking of da condition there... wif my niece n nephew running around n making noise... i don think i can concentrate... but bo pian la... hav 2 try 2 study... dis 3 test i m done 4... no hop dy... especially EMG... sum1 rescue me... but i don think any1 can... coz they r struggling oso... T_T

Hmm...

Was intended 2 post dis on thursday... but den thinking like ntg 2 rite ab... hahaha... so was delayed 2 yest... but yest nite wad bz wif sumthg else... so 2day morning oni rite... haih~ almoz a week din post dy... lets start from monday... well, tat day was a tiring day... 8am class den wen bek after tat 2 hav a rest... but cant rest at all... so prepare 4 da lab... da lab was ok la... but doing haf way... no electricity... but oni a whi;e... wad a disappointment... hahaha... so cont do... dono do wad oso... juz get da data n draw sum lines on da smith chart... oso called black magic design... kinda cool huh... hahha... after lab wen 2 T n P house 2 study a while... later 6pm got comp xtra tut... after tat went 4 dinner... den wen bek 2 their house 2 finish up da moral assign... so tiring... but we finish in time... reach home at ab 11pm dy... bath, prepare 4 2molo n sleep...

On tuesday, 8am class again... so tiring from yest... cant concentrate well... after class at 12pm.. balik n rest... woke up it was 4pm dy... feel a little dizzy.... later got moral class... n our presentation... tot of wanna go... but den decided not 2 go... coz feeling like not well... sori ya, guys... at nite study 4 ECP test till 1am... wednesday ntg much happen la... wen 2 class at 12-2pm... den wen bek 2 rest n study 4 da ECP again... coz at nite exam at 9pm... so late... coz sum ppl got exam at 8-9pm i guess... so da test was............. haih~

Thursday, oso ntg happen... wen 2 class at 2-7pm str8... tats was ok dy... usually was from 12pm but was cancelled... hehe... so nex week hav 2 ganti lo... ohya... da hotdog pics was taken on thursday... its my lunch... hahaha.... long time din eat dy.... was kempunan since i saw it in da freezer... hahaha.... nice~ after class wen hom.... den my aunt say wanna belanja makan... hehe... so wen out 4 dinner... indonesian diet... da food was ok la... sori, no pics...

On friday, class at 10-12pm... later wen 2 lunch... tot of staying bek 2 study... but decided 2 com bek... kinda regreted it coz yest din study at all... nvm la... 2 day piah finish da EMG... hopfully can start wif PEM oso... yest nite my mom bought bek sum food... hahaha... which is our dinner... got roti jala.... long time din eat oso... hehehe.... den da cup of red liquid u noe wad is tat?... blood... hahaha.... no la... blood where got so cair wan... its watermelon juice... was very pure... can feel da chunk of watermelon.... da purest fruit juice i ever tasted... but was quite sweet... ohya, got sum pics of my dog 2... she dono how 2 pose la... haih~ i take da cam in front of her oso she tak layan me... she look da other way... hmph... next time will take better wan...

time flies

Wah... time flies man... so fast 1 week dy... n i juz finish 1st 2 chap of ECP... die lo... 2nite suppose 2 finish up chap 3 wan... but suddenly sum1 pass da nas 4 EMF assign tat was 2 pass up 2molo b4 1pm... so start 'referring' lo... wow... so many ar... tot little oni... took me almoz an hr... coz in between ppl keep asking sumthg.... den c da time.... 11.30 liao... walao... wad i done earlier?... ohya... i kemas my bilik a little... shift my comp table closer 2 my study table... so i no need 2 wake up avtime i need sumthg from either da table...

Haih~ 2molo start skul again lo... n worse of all is tat 2molo start class at 8am... PEM summor den 2molo i got lab summor... aiyo~ den hav 2 rush 4 da moral assign... but almoz complete la... as i say on da previous post... its oledy 95% completed... i guess... will present on tuesday... make sure u r there... hehehe... week 8 liao... 5 more weeks include dis b4 da dead line of da ECP assign pulak... oh... got da ECT assign summor... 1 month more... all dis means tat we hav 7 weeks more b4 da final exam... liao liao... b4 i worry ab final... i better worry ab midterm 1st... which is on dis 2 weeks...

Dis sud b my fastest post ever... coz late liao... donno y m i riting dis now oso.... so signing off... gudnite~ n c all of u 2molo... ;)

ophthalmology

Yest wen 2 bed at 12.30 but oni fell asleep at around 2.00... n today hav 2 wake up at 7.00... so sleepy but still hav 2 wake up... coz i got appointment... hehe... wif who? wif doc... wen 2 hospital besar wif my dad... appontment at 8 n i reach at 8... hehe... go register n my no. is 1053... n da current no. is 1005... walao... wait 4 an hr b4 my turm... n juz 2 read ABC.... oni a few mins... after tat wait another hr+ 2 c doc... bla bla... den she ask me 2 go 2 da optometrist... n ya... its a she if u r wondering... so go 2 da room... da optometrist cek my power... later she put a yellowish liquid in my eye follow by a colorless wan... da purpose is 2 open up da 'anak' mata'... n ask 2 wait 15 mins b4 going 2 c da doc again... suddenly my eye sight is very clear... but feels numb.... n its pedih wen da liquid is in ur eyes... but oni a while... after 15 mins wen 2 c da doc... she juz 'look' at my eyes oni... den can balik liao... haih~ wen there at 8 n balik at 12... 4 hrs juz 2 masuk 3 room... da effect of da solutions is very long... wen i balik... da sun was on top... n my vision is extremely bright... bright till it makes me headache... its like looking str8 into da light...

Ohya... wen i m in da doc room... she say all pakar don like contact lens wan... n ask me not 2 wear... stick 2 specticles... but wen i m in da optometrist room... she say da contact lens muz wear owez wan... oni can biasa... swt~ so judge urself la...

Well, eyes r very imp 2 us... tats wad i've learn wen i wen 4 cek up... since form 2 o 3 i hav been going there... eyes r like colors n window 2 da world... without them avthg will b in darkness... n its sound scary 2 me sumtimes... coz i was born wif 'lazy eye'... i c mozly wif my left eye rather den both eyes... tats y i dono how it feel 2 c wif both eyes... 2 c wif both eyes... i hav 2 concentrate more on my right eye.... but wad i c i dono izzit i c wif both eyes o juz 1 eye... n sumtimes i c double... sumtimes i cant judge da distance of sumthg between me... sumtimes i oso feel unbalance... oh... forgotten 2 'defined' wad is lazy eye... well, from my point of view... its basically sumthg 2 do wif da nerves in da eye... da nerves in 'dead' o 'lazy'... u get my point, right?...

Other den tat... i hav very high 'power' n astigmatism... tats y my spec r very thick... o u didnt notice... wadever... tats is y i don prefer 2 drive at nite... a car coming from da opposite direction will cause me 2 blink o close my eyes due 2 da brightness tat i cant stand... but sumtime it cant b help tat ii hav 2 drive at nite... eg, midterm exam... so drive slowly lo... if no car nvm la... sace sailing... haih~ don pity me la... i don take tat sort... i was born lidet... i don think myself as unlucky... i think myself as special o unique... hahaha...

Hav u ever think tat... mayb sumday... u get blind... due 2 sum accident o sum unexpected event... well, i hav... coz my power is so high... mayb i'll b blind sumday... it sounds scary... but usually i don think much of it... if tat rili happens... i juz hav 2 face da fact... n live on... don ask me how tho... haven think of it yet... so, take care of ur eyes... its from sum1 tat don hav a pair of normal eyes...

P.S.: i change my template again... hahaha... like it?... red n white in black makez it more outstanding... don u think so?... it took me 2 days 2 make dis changes n 2 make it right... ya, i've been playing wif html rather den studying... haih~ so wad... hahaha... will study 2nite... i think... :D

bReaK

Midterm break started dy... i din notice oso at 1st... but on friday nite saw ppl msn n ym status oni noe tat it has begun... dis break rili don hav da 'break' feeling... coz after da break got 4 exams... 1 on da week after break n 3 on da week after tat... wow... die lo... PEM n EMG bek 2 bek... on da 1st day after break got lab summor... den on da 2nd day got da moral presentation... my grp will b presenting... on da 3rd day ECP exam... so u noe y dis break has no feeling 2 it... if u get my point...

So on saturday wen 2 T n P house again... in da morning they hav oledy started... but i cant go in da morning... so wen at da evening.... moz of da parts hav been joined dy... juz lef da sentences n da effect oni... but it took us quite a long time oso... start at 3+ n end at 6+... wen i wen home... it's ab 95% finish dy... juz lef sum 'tweaking'... if tats da rite word 2 use...

Reach hom hav sum porridge... mana tau later my aunt n uncle cam down from jasin... n they say wanna hav dinner... so wen 2 a shop nearby my house... i was so full dy... but still ate a little... while eating, wilson called me... he say he's at my house dy... har... sori ya... u came a bit late la... den he ask how 2 go 2 jln ong kim wee... so i directed him by fon... hop he got his way around la... reach hom around 10pm dy... since ntg 2 do watch a chinese movie on tv... but i've oledy watched it long time dy wan... it finish at 11.30... den off my comp n wen 2 bed...

On sunday... wake up at 10... early le... hahaha... coz my parent say wanna go KL n find my bro n sis... so off we go after breaky... on da highway... i notice sumthg weird... da sun ray was orange in color... weird eh... n it isnt evening yet... its 11+ in da morning... n it looks like evening dy... wadever la... singgah nilai on da way... coz my dad wanna ask 4 rental... den was going 2 my bro house... erm... sumwhere near sri kembangan... den my dad dono how drove till da mines pulak... so called my bro com n lead da way... wen 2 his house c c lo... den later wen 2 my sis house pulak... at puchong... juz pindah there... very hard 2 go there... my bro keep turning n turning as tho in da same place but is not... *weird*... after a while reach dy... later we all go 2 IOI mall... n hav pizza there... my sis belanja... hehe... den shop 4 luggage bag... coz my sis flying 2 UK... not ulu klang ya... hahha... walk till kaki sakit... den balik lo... reach mlk around 7.30-8.00... den hav dinner... reach home n watch da 'ding' slow... hahah.. final mah... a gal wif hulla hoop won... surf a while den wen 2 bed at 1am... hehe...

Today wake up at 11... hoho... read da newspaper... ntg interesting 2 me... den on my comp n notice tat 2day is my fren's bday... heheh... so happy bday ya daryl... 2day monday dy ho... wonder wen will i b studying..........

wad's left of me...

Nuttin'... nuttin' left of me... i m exhausted... according 2 my star sign... 2day suppose 2 b my lucky day 4 dis week... but let c wad happen 2day... wake up at 8.50am... recieve msg from sum1 2 pass msg 2 sum1... well, its complicated.... wash up n hav breaky.... a cup of milk... siap at 9.30 n waited 4 my dad 4 5 mins 4 him 2 get ready... coz he's driving me 2 campus... tot i'll b late... den watch over my dog so she won run outside wen da gate is open... but she slip away from my hand... another 5 mins passed... reach campus at 9.55... walk all da way 2 clc... reach exactly at 10... lec blum datang... phew~ hav tut 4 2 hrs.... don even understand a word i m copying... after tat hav 2 'mafan' yen 2 fetch us 4 lunch... n wen 2 T n P house... n after a while wilson called n said he hav reach... he drove all da way 2 mlk wif 3 frens... hello~ long time din c... pass da thgs he wan n crape a while... den he's off 2 sumwhere...

Started our ecp assign... cut cut n glu glu.... n sumthg wen wrong... but a small matter oni... wadever la... da same time doing moral assign... at da beginning av1 suddenly bcom so cold... exep me n yen... tok 2 them tak layan wan... dono wad took over them... shrugs... biasa dy... after av members hav arive... they're normal again... o mayb b4 av1 com... wadever... n i was suppose 2 fetch CC 2 sentral... but i din drive 2day... so sori ya CC...

Do till around 5pm n moz of them hav gone bek dy... started 2 hav headache... coz they searching 4 da rite song 2 put in... listen 2 all da rock songs... my god... so decide 2 go bek... wen my dad came... my nephew n niece was in da car 2... coz no1 is at home... my mon haven bek.... den reach bek my causin oledy reach dy 2 fetch them bek.... av monday 2 friday they will com my house... coz they skulling infront of my house oni... n hav 2 fetch them bek 2 my house av day... very nakal... but isnt it great 2 b kids... no stress no fuss... hiah~ hav mee 2 eat den my parent wen out... n i hav my dinner at 9.30pm... wow, 1st time i eat so late... hahaha.... den ntg 2 do... still headache... but decided 2 make dis post...

I think 2day oni so so oni... where got lucky... haih~ 2molo hav 2 go there summor... hopfully da moral wan can finish la... signing off...