midTerm... ASSignment... eXhausted...

Wow... so long din blog dy... haih~ so bz la... on9 oso no time... since da last 2 weeks... hav been bz studying 4 2 midterms n 3 assignments... after da last post... been bz studying 4 electronic midterm... chap 2 was like shit... all da slides is full of words n equations... no space 4 u to scribble anythg oso... den on da big nite which was 21 april, fri... da exam wad like... erm... da paper was too smart 4 sum1 like me... tats wad i can say bout da paper la... haih~ after da paper start study 4 engin maths pulak... fuiyo~ ODE, so 'ordinary' man... Laplace, Fourier n Z-transform... wow... i wonder how they figure it out man... sanjung... avday study till nite non-stop xcep 2 makan... from 9/10 in da morning n study till 5/6 n sumtimes till 10 at nite... wah... giler siut... so piah... not terus from 10am-10pm la... in da middle got class oso la :D... but avtime reach home sure very tired lo... exhausted... so, on da big nite of engin maths exam which was on 25, tue... da paper was ok lo... objectives wad... 20 ques 1 hr... wad u xpect rite... so so lo... n yest da result for engin maths wad release... tot i got a bad result coz after discussing wif fren, byk salah... mana tau my result wad ok o :D... after da exam... tot can relax dy rite... but... 2 assignment hav 2 pass up dis fri... today la... n another pass up nex tue... so piah lo... da 1 which hav 2 pass up nex tue is measurement n was quite easy... 1 hari siap... nv tot tat wad so easy... so 2 more 2 go... machine n electronic... machine was hard man... all so many steps wan... sial... electronic le, was even harder... use pspice... i still dono how 2 use it :D... paiseh la... use 4 so long dy but still dono... haih~ let da xpert do la... i do others which i cud... so 2day after pass up both can finally relax abit dy... but thinking of final is near... 2 weeks more, xclude dis week... hati tak tenang la... xspecially sum of my midterm result sux... hav 2 study from da beginning again lo... haih~ hav 2 +u lo... keep thinking of last sem result... haih, regret oso no use... but no take initiative oso... oh, sum1 help me... haih~

*clearly, blurry, unhappy*

haih~ wad a week... wake up on wed wif a cold... sneeze like hell... wen 2 skul at 1pm 2 find lec... but he wasnt there... wen lib 2 do assign... do a while den feel kinda hard 2 breathe... mayb da air in da lib not very circulating... den at 4pm wen 2 find da lec again n wen 2 class at 5pm 2 7pm... bored like hell... den stay bek n hav dinner at EP.... coz 8pm got replacement class... after class reach home around 10.30 dy.... very tired so sleep at 11+... thur wake up at 7am... still sleepy but wad 2 do... got class at 8am... av thur is da moz tiring day of da week... coz hav class from 8-12pm n breack till 3pm den cont class from 3-7pm... tat nite oso sleep quite early at 11.30 i think... coz hav lab on fri 9am... fri wake up at 8.20... wad da... wad happen 2 my hp alarm... i set it at 7.50am wad... rush up n look at my fon... it shows 5.13am... wad??? ohya... yest da battery came out... but y da time is wrong? wadever la... quickly wash up n drive 2 skul... reach there at 9.05am... but da lec haven com oso... da lab was like shit... spend 1 n da haf hr on juz da 1st exp... n hav 3 more 2 go summor... luckily my partner n i finish it in time... haha... sum copy wan la... hehe... later class at 2.30pm... av1 was so serious xcep 4 me... wonder wad happen... tok 2 them din ans wan... dono they listen o not oso... shrugs... wen bek around 6pm dy... turn on my comp... den it started 2 make prob... n tried wad i can n is still da same... very kek sim dy... so juz ignore it 4 now... at nite.... lagi kek sim... ask ppl 4 help dy still da same... haih~ don care la... wanted 2 study den remembered sumthg 2 ask sum1... tat time moody dy... ask him sumthg he joke a few time... so ask him 2 b serious coz i hav no mood 2 joke around... den he terus no reply bek... wad da... haih~ wadever la... so i go study lo... but wad i read din masuk otak oso... read oni a page... dono wad i was reading... den bcom rili 'fan'... so tido lo... haih~ today le... wake up at 12... haha... my comp is still da same... still hav da prob... don care la... wanna study...

*i juz wanna c it clearly...
but da more i c, it bcom more blurry...
n i bcom more unhappy... *

*我只想看清... 却越看越不清... 而我越伤心...*

today is tuesday a holiday

Hehe... put pics 1st... grab ur attention... haha... 2day wake up at 11+... n saw my mom steaming sumthg dy... but dono wad... so wash up n my comp is on-ed... my bro on it b4 i wake up... coz we using shared internet connection... i hav 2 on my comp oni he can use... hehe... so browse a while n make changes 2 my blog... notice it? da pics above... i do wan... amateur work... hehe... den oni noe my mom is steaming banana cake... coz da banana is too ripe dy... o can say like benyek dy... yuck... hahha... not av banana can make cake lo... my mom say 2 make cake, pisang monyet is da best... hoho... nice le... den around 12 hav lunch... my mom cook mee bandung... noe wad izzit? if dono... nvm la... hahah... i dono how 2 xplain la... its basically like chinese mee udang la... but mee bandung is malay wan... da ingredients/rempah is siap dy wan... juz boiled da mee n cook da sup ayam... den masuk da rempah lo... add sayur n wadever stuff u like la... hahaha... nyam... btw, its spicy stuff... so bad news 4 those who don like spicy stuff... hehe...
After lunch, erm... spend da whole evening facing da comp... haha... mostly la... searching 4 sumthg... ebook... coz wanna learn sumthg... hehehe... very hard oni found da 1 i wanted... phew~ wad a relief.... but during da proses... kek sim o... feel like giving up... but i din... luckily it pays off... ppl owez say: "if u don giv up, u'll eventually get wad u wan"... i do so agree wif da saying tho... hahaha... tea time hav da banana cake... nice... spongy... nyam nyam :D
Dinner ntg special... xcep 4 da sup tat my mom been slow cooking it since morning... sum sort of ginseng wif chicken sup i think... taste ok lo... hehe... after dinner read da ebook... search 4 da topic i wan oni... haha... den try it out... wah~ nice... ada bakat... hehhehheh... puji sendiri pulak... hahah... no la... actually very easy wan la... search da ebook so hard... 300++ pages... but i oni read da wan i wan... which is oni 4/5 pages... hahaha... nvm... its worth it... can keep mah... mana tau nex time other part i oso need le... hehe... mayb will learn it dis holiday... after tat... i start at machine assignment lo... 1st ques, draw da graph... den... er... dono do... skip... ques 2, read read... huh??? apa dia tulis??? apa gua print???... skip... ques 3, hmm... dis i noe... kua... do a bit... draw draw... er... stuck... ask T la... ask ask... okok... do a bit... aiyo... so mafan wan... dowan do dy la... blur blur liao :D... so decided 2 post dis lo... hoho...
Wah... dis few day, since sat... very 'wu liao' o... keep posting... hahaha... all ab food wan... my mom rajin mah :þ... die lo... dis week got lab... fri... ECT3 (electronic lab)... haih~ den nex fri got lab summor... measurement lab 2... n at nite exam ar.... electronic... OMG!!!... den tue engin maths... den after 3 weeks is FINAL... arghhhh!!!.... die lo die lo... haih~ no mood study le... how? sum1 save me from dis nitemare... eik... engin maths exam A balik ho... juz finish his final.... ask him save me... hehehe...

Yeah!!!

Yeah... 2molo holiday... no class... can rest lo... but cant... haih~ hav 2 do assignments... currently got 2... 1 pass up nex fri n a nother is 3 more weeks include dis week i guess... n if not mistaken there r 2 more assignments 2 com later... most probably is week week kua... haih~ n nex fri got exam summor ar... electronic... die la... op-amp? apa tu...? den on tue after da fri got engin maths pulak... OMG!!! ODE n laplace... ODE stands 4 ordinary differential equation... but i don c anythg ordinary ab it oso.... so hard... ordinary my feet... haha... n laplace is basically... erm... well... integration... die lo die lo... haih~
Well... tats tat la... wadever happen happens... so juz hav 2 face it la... hmm... dis morning wake up at 10 sumthg... ntg 2 do... on comp lo... wad else rite... hahaha.... surf surf a while den hav 2 go campus dy... measurement was fine lo... ntg unusual happens... so r comp lec... listen 2 da comp lec was so bored... dono ab wad algorithm thg n language thgy.... den dono wad big-O... i don c any big O oso... wadever la... shrugs... at clc concourse... a lot of japanese stuff... got sushi n sum ppl selling anime model... looks cool... n sum cute stuff... haha... tot of buying da tortoise... 5 buck... den pikir pikir tak jadi pulak... nvm la... c wed got summor not... den rethink whether 2 buy not... hahaha... buy dy where 2 put ar???
After tat balik rumah lo... got air keledek... hoho... my dad cook wan... ya... my dad... hehe... actually my mom tell him wad 2 do dy wan la... taste ok lo... cek out da pics... ohya... keledek again... nyam nyam... hahaha... dis few days a lot of keledek... my mom fren giv wan... later relax lo, mandi lo, makan dinner lo... tat wan no need say la... hehehe... den open fridge saw ice cream... hehe... da cup wan... long time din eat lo... took da pics giv u c... hahaha... so 'wu liao' o... sumtimes 'wu lia' a bit nvm... heheh... 2day i happy mah... very gud mood since wake up... hoho... n 2molo holiday summor o... no need drive 2 campus... hehe... but hav 2 do assignment lo :(... haih~

Kuih

Hehe... look at yen's blog so many pics n food so jealous... hahaha... n since 2day my mom so rajin make so many kuih... so i took da pics n post it here... hoho... most of da kuih is 4 2molo 2 go my mom's parent grave pray wan... hehe... but i m not going :þ... i wen almoz av year but since alpha year i stop going dy... coz most of da time it clash wif exam... usually midterm la... altho monday no exam... but lz go... hahaha... last week my parents wen 2 my father's parents grave dy... so dis week my mom's parent's... hmm... 'ching ming'.... i dono wads it means oso la... hahaha... look at da pics la... since my bro len his fren da digi cam dy... i hav 2 use my pendrive cam 2 took it... so quality not tat gud la... hehe...

dis is da 1st kuih my mom make... call steam cake... coz basically its steam... hahah... but da thg got cacat a bit... it sud b open up like da 'fatt' kuih wan... but instead, it grow up... n sum senget wan... haha... so cute o...

dis is da fatt kuih... coz da steam cake cacat dy... so my mom make dis 2 pray 4 2molo... oso very cute le... hehehe...

dis is kuih koci as u all noe it... da 1st wan n da 2nd wan got diff o... do u noe wads da diff... heheheh.... da 1st wan is chinese style wan... use oil/minyak... da 2nd wan is malay style... da usual wan... use santan punya...

dis wan le is donut... called kuih keria (dono how 2 spell) in malay... its make from keledek... a bit of fluor oni... so its taste mostly of keledek... nyam nyam... i like keledek... but da 1st wan haven siap wan... haven salut wif gula melaka.... its actually gula melaka n gula pasir n water... den cook 2 thicken n put in da donut... kacau rata so it salut all da donut n let it dry... muz eat fast if not later da gula cair... sticky sticky wan... very geli... hahah... da siap wan is da 2nd wan... nice ler... hehe...

dis is my dinner... nasi goreng wif tuna... nyam nyam... evening hav porridge/bubur... bubur keledek... hehheh... keledek again o... told u tat i like keledek... den wif sum lauk la... fish n sayur... nice... long time din eat bubur dy... altho tat day juz ate at 'ke jia'... but tak puas... hohoho...

nice o not da pics... i mean... da food la... hahaha... giv comment la... look appetizing o not... heheh :þ... sori bout da pics la... quality not gud... paiseh lo... no fon cam mah... use pendrive oni... still better den ntg wad...

warp up

Hmm.... tot of posting dis yest but yest was so tired so yest juz a simple post of a lyric... a song by ayumi... nice... dono y but during da 2 midterms tat r going on... i oni listen 2 ayumi... hahaha... mayb coz its japanese n i don understand it.... n it feels nice... n it won mix up wif wad i m studying... heheh...
Well... last week n dis week is so tired... wen 2 lib avday... let me think... ya, its avday... including sat n sun... avday study measurement oni... coz so many theory... haih~ but mon test was ok i guess... so so lo... den tue oni start study comp... haih~ luckily last time hav study 4 da marked tut... if not habis la... so wed test was ok lo... done a small mistake... but oso so so la... hehe...
Dis few days very stress... think a lot of thgs... n angry oso... coz of... erm... sum1 la... o mayb 2 o more... haha... wadever la... better don rite it la... all i wanna say is... speak 4 urself b4 u speak 4 others...

Beautiful Day

Every time we come to a fork in the road
We choose one and go forward
But the other way we didn't choose
Always looks so bright
Why?

What's a Beautiful Day?
When you hesitate over a choice, surely (You know)
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you are just hesitating to choose the answer you want to choose

It's a Beautiful Day
You don't have to be afraid

We are scared of tomorrow
Because we are so anxious about what we haven't yet seen
But if tomorrow is too obvious to see
It's so much boring
Don't you think so?

What's a Beautiful Day?
It's easy to get a beautiful moment, but (You know)
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you can't get beautiful things just by being beautiful

What journey will you make
In your limited time?

~Ayumi Hamasaki~

dileMMa <-> coNfuse

I m in a dilemma now... help me... monday n wednesday got exam... measurement n computer midterm... i've started studying since tue oni 4 measurement... coz mon is machine's midterm... n been struggling coz of da 'little' theory parts... almoz all of it is thoery... each n av pages n av corner of da notes is full wif words n oni words... n is so diff wif da tut... sux man... n i haven look at computer oso... but at least last time hav study it 4 da marked tut... hopfully i still remember la...
Today... i wen 2 lib early at 9am... n reach there it still don allow students 2 enter yet... so nvm, wait a while lo... after a few mins its open n i enter n find a place tat we usually sit... den after a while T n P reach n around 10am L reach... so avthg was normal... den around 1pm hav lunch n go bek lib continue study... but L wen bek coz later at 5 he hav sumthg 2 do... reach bek lib around 1.35pm n oni saw Z msg tat he will b joining us at 2... around 2 sumthg, Z joined us 2 study n avthg was like usual 2... we study till 5 sumthg coz got lost track of time... av1 was tired n wen bek... my head was heavy n like spinning... so drive slowly n saw an accident between 2 saga on da way bek... reach home around 5.45pm dy n my mom say tat we r having dinner outside wif my uncle n aunts... so relax a bit, bath n my uncle they all reach so we wen out 4 dinner lo... during dinner i hav a headache... after dinner n reach home it was about 10pm dy n headache was still there... tot of wanted 2 study but cant wif a headache like dis... so rest a while n on9 lo...
My dilemma starts here... after resting 4 a while around 11 sumthg... i start study lo... headache was gone... tats wad i think... study a while n sum1 ym me... its T n he said tat P is sick... n i ask him wad happen... wad he said is over da top... n its hard 4 me 2 believe him n since 2day is april fool 2... so its not hard 4 me 2 assume tat he o they r faking it... after tat i try 2 continue 2 study... but my mind juz fly away... keep thinking of wad T juz told me... n my reaction is like... well... i dono... all of dis makes me confuse... n i cant study... n i was getting nervous each time i look at da notes... n thinking tat i sud hav finish it n was starting my comp by now... n my headache returns...
So now i cant concentrate anymore... all i can think of is 2 rite a post... n here i m riting dis... i m having mix emotions n reaction rite now... mayb i sud juz go 2 bed... if i rili misunderstood them... i m sori... haih~ but wads da use of ritimg it here... not tat they read it oso... nvm la... juz wanna express my feelings oni... n hopfully sum1 understands... i think i will go 2 bed... g9, bye...

~if i m a piece of paper... wad will u rite on me...~