Ti Gong 天公

Some preparations are done before it starts... folding of paper money or paper gold... baking of cakes and fruits...

 

Bamboo is a must... normally it is tied at the side of the gate... it have some history behind it... something that goes like this... during the war time, the Japanese invasion... so the hokkien people run into the forest to hide... a bamboo forest... so when the war ended, and the Japanese retreated... it was the 9th day of the Lunar Calendar...which is also the birthday of the Jed Emperor (天公), the god of all gods... and the people came out from hiding... it is a blessing from the god... that is why we pray during the night of the 8th day and morning of the 9th day of CNY.. to show gratitude...

There will be eggs to represent the birthday...

Normally they prayer is done in front of the house with a table full with fruits and cakes...

Usually it last till 1am or 2am... and we will offer the folded golds as offerings...

This day is a very big day to the Hokkiens...

Going out of my mind...

CNY 2012

This CNY been kinda boring... took a 2 weeks off from work... but it seems like everyone is busy... the timing is just wrong... geesh... I have the time of my life... but others seems so busy with their own stuffs... no time to meet up... I been like basically stayed at home accompanying my parent... or is it the other way around... whatever... boring new year...

Missing someone...

badly...

Christmas confession

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

This post was not planned... recently, I am lost again... it's been months since I last blog... work been piling up... it feels like I was put on the spotlight.. extra work have been kinda frustrating too... which I brought it to myself.. thought it will get me off my mind... seems like is the other way around... emotions of the heart still a big issue... I feel lost and lonely and everything in between... I do not know what to do..

It's been more than five months since that day... that day that I made everything worst and awkward... I thought I could handle and coupe with it... but I guess it is too much for me.. it still hurt each time I think about it... but if you ask me whether I regret it... I would say no.. past couple of weeks, things are starting to get not so awkward anymore... but sometimes it still does... because I wish for more... I hunger for more... I controlled my feelings and emotions inside... but I could not control other people's... but when I am alone.. the emotions eat me inside... little by little... I hate the feelings and emotions I feel... I cant breathe.. it's suffocating me... but I could not do anything...

There have been millions or billions of 'if' that been crossing my mind... but I do not have the courage to make it real... I scared it will make things worst... so all the thoughts will just be kept in my mind... and it is driving me crazy sometimes... but I could not do anything... all I could do is wait... and wait... and wait..

Christmas day...

Just another day to me...

Pangkor, revisited

Some randoms photos from the Pangkor Team Building... been delaying the post for months... finally posted about it... all photos are in sequence...sure brings back memories...

Regrets and mistakes...

they're memories made...

25 and still counting...

Today I turned 25... quarter of a life time... what have I done this 25 years? It feels like life is so short... and you do not know what to expect of it... the meaning of life... is there really a real meaning to it... you will spend your whole life searching for it... and you would not find the true meaning of life...

25 years are a very long time... but looking at the things that I done... it's like nothing... what have I been doing my whole life? Went to kindergarten... went to primary school... went to secondary school... went to universities... got my degree... got my first job... went to Thailand... went to Vietnam... went to Pangkor... what's next? Taiwan trip? find my other half? get married? have children? raise children? grow old? live a normal life? what is a normal life? is there such thing as normal? define normal?

25 years and I am still here... have nothing... people living their dreams... on TV, on newspapers, everywhere... but I am still here... counting... twenty-five...

still counting...